Balastic Pink

2012-02-12T10:00:00.000-08:00

The Mr. QS & Mrs. QS in the making :)

No one is too young for love, because love doesn't come from your mind, which knows your age - but from your heart, which knows no age.

just keep the love on the right track, InsyaAllah :) God will bless the journey of love

Today : Alhamdulillah, it's been 11 months of togetherness

:) I love you Ridhwan Ruzil

The Weekenders

2012-02-02T05:45:00.000-08:00

Dear World,

Last week was a true highlight of my life. It was really dramatic & extremely adventurous. I'm not sure where to start my story with - but I know it ends with a smile. First things first, I'm proud with myself and my capability of driving skills. I drove all the way from Perak to Penang with my course mates & him <3 Thus, I learnt a lot of things when I'm involved in this so-called forbidden road trip. I made new friends, I experienced the best & the worst part of my life, I even learnt how to survive & response to crisis in the nick of time. At the end of the day, I had fun! I had fun in each and every angle of the journey, surveying & solving problems with them. To sum everything up, I'm glad I didn't went back to Shah Alam during Chinese New Year last week.

Nobody knew the real journey of our road trip,

but I swear to God - it is a road to remember :)

for the five of us,

naura.duwe.siti.suha.nina

If life gives you lemons, don't make lemonades.

Make grape juice! Show the world how awesome you are :)

last but not least, introducing my hero ;

the guy who I love to argue with every where I go (including Penang),

the boy who I fall head over heels for.

forever him <3

*psst, we're almost a year now! :)

Running in Heels

2012-01-17T23:03:00.000-08:00

Dear friends,

I'm officially busy with my own life now. This world of mine is now torturing me in a very brilliant way though. I just have to keep up with the beat, the rhythm of tasks, and of course, time management. I have to keep things straight & well ordered. Sometimes I do feel like rip of my clothes & shove myself in the toilet due to excess exhaustion I carried on my shoulder every single day. However, I shall take this as a challenge. I also need to keep up with my CGPA this semester.

At times, after several hours slaving myself in front of this laptop, I felt like rushing to bed and enveloped my body with Shyma's blanket – but noooooo. Sleeping was never the solution.

My boyfriend always said that I'm not living in a healthy life. Of course! I hit the sack around 4am and it's entirely my routine nowadays. I woke up around 6.30am for the Subuh prayer, then zooming off to class at 8am. I'll say you're mad if you agree that THIS is healthy.

Frankly, I don't consider myself as a workaholic. No, I don't – and I am not. Well, I do categorized myself as a person who commits in everything. Commitment is a vital ingredient in order to be successful in life. You have got to put your guts in it. In my POV, the world is now a race. To those who prefer to sit back and enjoy the scene, well, these people may not share the same goal as me.

In my world,

I am now riding a horse, holding a sword, with my steel mask on and ready to race - and for all warriors out there, prepare for the worse because you're about to meet your nightmare - ME.

# In case you’re wondering, I’m currently listening to Remember My Name by Fort Minor (yeah, that’s why I’m pumped up to write energetic stuff)

Why am I that busy? Do I sell drugs? No. Secretly I’m a Russian agent? Again, no.

I have double life just like Hannah Montana? Yes. Okay No. Here, I tell you why.

Let’s keep it short & simple. I have loads of works to do which involves research, real life case studies, site visits, acting, group discussions, business plan, and of course – assignments.

Yeah.

Oh, remember what I said? I was elected to be the Vice Project manager for QS’s Program Amal and my boyfriend is the Project Manager? Yeah. It turns out to be a very massive event. We’ll be heading to Penang and stayed there for two days & one night. 2 busses with almost 70 QS students and 20 lecturers are under my roof. I hope Ridhwan & I can pull this off. It’s going to explosive as we will be printed out in the newspaper (yes. I’m going to be famous!) – InsyaAllah. YB Farid of Bentong Penang will be joining us too! Our beloved Encik Hafiz guided us professionally and he knew that this is it. It’s high time to show to the world that what QS students of UiTM Perak are made of. Technically, showing to other UiTM students that we are exists (still alive & keep rocking).

Full report will be updated. No worries readers!

I told you I’m busy J

footnote;

another piece of picture with no motives :)

Tweet Tweet Little Birdie!

2012-01-17T11:02:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to Beggin by Madcon

Dear Readers,

This world is now a crazy place to live in. Sounds demented? You bet. We are now living in a world where losing your iPhone is more dramatic than losing your virginity. Everything goes upside down now. Despite how my good friends turned against me & how I decided not to have a crush on Justin Bieber anymore, clearly the world is not a safe place now. I mean, MY WORLD.

Once, I swore to myself not to have a Twitter account. They say it’s addictive. And I was like pfft-! You have gotta be kidding me. Nothing can beat Facebook. However, here I am. Look at me today. I’ve been twitting all day long using my cellphone. It’s been only 19 days since I’ve created my Twitter account and I just can’t get enough of it. I’ve been updating each and every single event of my life on Twitter. Some might consider Twitter as an online diary. Some might categorized it as an anger-release website. Well as for me, I just tweet with no specific intentions. That’s all. I tweet to express, not to impress. There’s a difference.

Here, the page of mine :) well usually I tweet using my phone.

Yes people, the world is not a very good place to live anymore. Technology is taking over the Earth. Kids are screaming over i-pads & Blackberry instead of Barbie dolls & Lego. Nevertheless, what happens to the world now – I’m involved. I’m one of the Twitter-Freaks & I’m doomed. Doomed? Yeah. Let me give you a situation.

What if one day,

my little ~~Laila~~ daughter decided to ask me,

“mummy, how do you spend the rest of your teenage years?”

I shall say

“I tweet for the rest of my life when I was a teenager. My cellphone is my soul.”

Trust me,

THAT IS THE MOST RIDICULOUS ANSWER EVER.

I wish I could say

“I’ve been exploring the world by hiking, making new friends, I love car racing, I went boy hunting in rock concert, I learnt how to and blablablabla”

Face it.

The world is now changing. And I hope it’s changing to be better & for improvement J

p/s : here’s my Twitter account. Hit it! @naurawesome

*my very own version of Twitter logo. hihi :3

Jyeah! I am AWESOME.

ALWAYS HAVE & ALWAYS WILL :)

hihi :3

xoxo

the-little-pink-birdie-who-loves-to-tweet-now

My Leg at Your Lips

2012-01-06T00:59:00.000-08:00

#currently listening to Speak of The Devil by Sum 41

*Okay, the title of this post may seem pretty absurd & extremely harsh. Don't get me wrong, it's just a title of a song which I found it very amusing. My Leg at Your Lips by Matchbook Romance.

No, I'm not asking you to listen to this song. ~~Not advisable for old folks and little children~~

Here's my point. Never judge a person by her/his cellphone ringtone. I am who I am and your approval is never desired nor required. Music is universal. Music is a sound which one can express the way of interest & emotions through it. It's music - for God's sake!

Last Friday, I was wearing a the traditional Baju Kurung. A very solid maroon, and beautiful "songket" material. Here I am, feeling as gracious as I could be, walking along the aisle buying some food to fill my stomach. Starving, as I would to say. Apparently, I was alone at that moment. Taking my time, picking up some chicken teriyaki and little bit of cheese.

As I reached the counter and paid the meal, my phone rang. "A Little Piece Of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold". Genre of Music? Very rock-ish and hardcore-ish music but not that metal-ish I would consider. (However, it is NOT a black magic worshiper kind of music) It was my gal pal, asking my current venue.

After answering that 1 minute call, a voice suddenly popped behind my back saying

"hipokrit. terlambat lah nak berubah. dah 2012 kott"

I turned around - and those words came out from some random stranger ; a boy, with basic black tee, a pair of faded jeans, and messy hair. His eyeballs glance straight into me as he rolled his eyes and raised his left eyebrow. He looked me in disgust and he flee.

EXCUSE ME? WHO ARE YOU & WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU SAYING?

OH WAIT. DO I EVEN KNOW YOU?

Hypocrite? WHO ARE YOU CALLING ME HYPOCRITE?!

Let's be professional. I won't let myself curse or spitting out horrifying mean words regarding this issue. Nevertheless, I've come to the bottom line.

A very, deeply, madly, truly, typical narrow minded Malay people.

I'm not saying that I hate the Malays and I'm not going to judge, criticize, condemn, or to jeer my own race - I'm saying that WE SHOULD CHANGE. Change the way how we think, how we respond to people, how we approach them. CHANGE. It is never too late to make a change.

here's my ringtone. anyone would like to say a few words?

p/s ; okay. err....ignore the video clip. let's focus on the music. It's my ringtone.

=_____="

okay. I shall change my ringtone.

for the sake of ORANG MELAYU DI SEKELILING KITA

darn it.

Ice Castle

2012-01-04T11:50:00.000-08:00

A few days ago, I was watching this awesome movie entitled Ice Castle with my mum. Since that day, this song seems to be a permanent sound in my head. I kept humming along with the rhythm without knowing the lyrics. Thus, tonight I just googled almost everything and here it is. Suprisingly, this song says it all. Really. To this matter, I would like to dedicate this song to my big sister, Nabila Nur.

Here it is,

the song that I've been singing

Safe

by Britt Nicole

You keep trying to get inside my head
While I keep trying to lose the words you said
Can't you see I'm hanging by a thread
To my life, what I know, yeah, I'm losing control and

Oh no, my walls are gonna break
So close, it's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe

You're not safe

I'm strong enough I've always told myself
I never want or need somebody else
But I've already fallen from that hill
So I'm dropping my guard
Here's your chance in my heart

Everything you want, but it's everything you need
It's not always happy endings, but it's all the in-betweens
It's taken so long, so long to finally see
That Your love is worth the best

This movie is actually a remake from the original movie on the year of 1987. It is about a young American girl from Iowa seeking for reality dreams ; Alexis Winston is a young girl who dreams of becoming a champion figure skater. Not to mention, her coach is an extreme pusher. While practicing, the beautiful Alexis suffers a terrible accident that takes her sight & threatens to destroy her dreams. Okay, she is totally blind. Enough said. In the midst of feeling sorry fr herself, her wonderful boyfriend Nick (with the help from her family) helps her to realize that she can still fulfill her dream as a successful figure skater. Nick even quits his rising career as a ice hockey player in order to help out his beloved Alexis to live her life and chase the gold.

Yes people, she actually skate with blind eyes.

Sounds awesome? Yeah. You bet :)

oh wait. here's another awesome love song which happens to be the theme song of this movie since the year of 1987 and a special remake in the year of 2010 by Britt Nicole.

Through The Eyes of Love

by Britt Nicole :)

xoxo,

the-skating-princess :)

The Hardcore Heartache

2012-01-04T11:02:00.000-08:00

#currently listening to Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World

Recently, one of my gal pals have been facing some major love trouble which ends with breaking up. It was a massive explosion of tears and devastation. I felt deeply sorry for her. Trust me, I witnessed how dedicated & sincere she was when she was in love. She never fools around or pulling some crappy act.

Yes world, we are young & naive - but being in love was beyond our control. Please understand.

However, some people are just blind or too blind to see that their special person is right in front of them. Oh hell, trust me, the guy who let my gal go - will suffer a great loss! Please remember, you're special. Always.

Well okay. In one way or another, ending a relationship is one of the hardest things we sometimes have to do. It's difficult when you're the one who gets dumped, but even if it's you ending a relationship, there are many painful emotions to deal with.

Either way, it hurts.

ouch.

In this case, its not about cheating or opposite interest, and maybe even trust issues. It's all about pulling ropes. Yeah, pulling ropes. The part when he wasn't there when we needed him.

The part when we weren't something special & important to him anymore. The part that he decided to make us just another chapter in his history.

Okay people, I have made up a theory. Let's work with me shall we?

Right. Here we go.

Theory #1

If you ended the relationship because he was just not there for you when you needed him, think back on how you felt when you really needed a shoulder to cry on and he wasn't there - or he wasn't open for that. Is it likely if you get back together with him that he'll start being there for you? Haven't you already told him you needed that time and time again?

It's especially difficult if the relationship is ending over things that don't seem that important but ended up being insurmountable. Logically, breakups are much easier when one person is cheating or treating the other one badly. At least when we're breaking up with someone we know that we won't be subjected to that behavior anymore.

Life can be extremely complicated and very complex when it comes to love. The journey of love depends on how the person handles it & adapt with it. It depends on the definition, perception & conceptual of love for each and every person who deals with it.

Theory #2

What if - okay. You're still can't resist the awesomeness of that guy which you use to fall for. No worries. I have my own theory! HAHA :)

Well, if you were close & you miss him but could not feel that special romantic love for him, really work hard at figuring out how you feel now.

Sucks?

Yeah, sometimes the truth bites.

Dear S,

If you want to see the rainbow, you must go through the rain.

If you want to find true love, you must go through the pain.

STAY STRONG PRINCESS.

p/s : kalau ada jodoh, tak kemana :)

xoxo,

the-girl-with-tons-of-theories

two zero one two

2012-01-01T01:46:00.001-08:00

Dear readers, here you go.

I've spread out a little bit of my personal confessions with a little combination of personal thoughts in the beginning of this brand new year that might motivate me (or all of us, I guess) to be a better person in future :')

#I worry too much. Really. However, absolutely nothing good can come out of over thinking things. Thus, I need to relax. Keep calm, & stay strong no matter what happens. This year, I wanna hold on to one thing. ONLY one thing ; STAY STRONG :')

#I get distracted easily. and at the end of the day, I never get to pull the trigger because I was busy doing something else - I still can't find the suitable antidote so that I can always stay focus.

#I drive fast when I'm angry. Frankly, I'm not a angry person. However, this is not good. Gotta change my way of living. There's a potential for my cause of death will be car crash and I really don't want this.

#Albert Eintsien once said, "anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new." Therefore, more mistakes will we done this year as I'll be trying more new things from now on. Again, I'm sorry world. I have no choice, (I think).

#The world is such a crazy place. I must be prepare for everything. What if someone snatches my handbag when I'm out with my hommies or gal pals? I have to be mentally & physically prepared. Life is hard.

these are my personal conceptual for Two Zero One Two. In one way or another, these confessions simply doesn't make sense.

Okay, off to bed now. :) Goodnight world.

xoxo,

Naura Nasuha J

Dreaming Out Loud

2011-12-30T07:52:00.000-08:00

This is crazy. I can't help it anymore. I'm sweating now. I ain't guilty and I'm not that innocent. One thing for sure, I'm about to say goodbye to the year that gave me splendid adventures with highly anticipated extraordinary events. If I have tons of money right now, trust me. I won't hesitate to produce my very own TV series reality show. Starring me, as the main actress & I'll show the world how I slave my own dragons and chase my own dreams.

Back to the main point. Why am I sweating?

Okay.

If someone told you that age is just a number, okay. Get a knife and end his life immediately! Those are just craps. In my POV, age is not just a number. Age is a level of a human which increases each year. And each year, instead of new resolutions & visions, you'll have to deal with unexpected future.

What you did today, will affect your tomorrow.

Tomorrow's mistake came from today's act.

see what I meant? I'm not blaming anyone or anything in this case. It's just that, I'm really really afraid of the future.

Gotta admit. I'm a very childish person and extremely immature (at least, that's what I think). So, let me paint you a picture. A 20 year old girl with childish & immature personality? I don't think it's a wise combination. It's horrible! It's like a whole recipe of corruption and destroy a human being.

Next year, 2012,

I want to be indestructible, extra bold, solid, yet very poise with full of grace.

Just like Grace Kelly.

Wonder who the heck is Grace Kelly? Okay. Google was invented with a reason. I believe you can relate both of my points ;)

xoxo

the-girl-who-is-extremely-afraid-of-the-future

Just My Luck

2011-12-13T10:50:00.000-08:00

Hello Readers :)

Well yeah, just my luck :( It's not about the movie of the hottie Josh Duhamel that I'm gonna talk about now. Let's put ME, under the microscope. Me - the simple girl who enjoys dramatic scenes & loves to make things around her complicated. Yes. I'm the girl.

So yesterday, I've listed down ALL of my crisis and finally, I've jumped into a conclusion.

I am now officially swimming in the ocean of problems. Do I know how to swim? No - but I can learn, right?

Therefore here I am, still breathing and decided not to commit suicide. Thank God

Okay, here's the thing. Imma gonna lay it down all of my cases, and you readers are gonna read it. And if you think that you might able to help me out to overcome these trivial problems of mine, therefore, you are nothing but my Superman! :)

Are you ready kids?

I can't hear you~!!

Okay, hey ho let's go!

PROBLEM 1

Practically, I am now living outside the campus. I'm a NR student. I rent a house and I live with my housemates. There are 6 of them. Did I mentioned how much I really love them? :) all of them are mentally crazy but really adorable! These gals are wickedly awesome. They make me feel like I'm part of them and they make me feel like I'm a friend and they treat me like a friend. My housemates are undeniably awesome. Really :) Helena, Eha, Ain, Yana, Syaimaa, Nita!

The problem is, well, I do have a problem. Living in college is way easier. But, my college friends are starting to ignore me and I felt abandon. They went out outing without even inviting me. And when they're in trouble, they came to me. (agaknya laa. I ni dramatic lebih. geli kan? haha! sila muntah sekarang) BUT I MISS MY GANG ANGGERIKS DUA LIKE HELL! :( Let's just say, I just received a room in college now.

So now fellas,

COLLEGE, or NR?

PROBLEM 2

Next semester will be different. My boyfriend and his friends (technically are my close friends & classmates) will be heading off to practical session. It's like an internship. Get it? Okay, the best part, each student were given three spots of firms that they want to work with. At first, my boyfriend wants to be close to me. Therefore he had chose Perak. However, I glance through his documents and stuffs, I can see that he had this problem on "where shall I live if I work in Perak?" I asked him to rent a house in Sri Iskandar and lived with his schoolmates. Sounds possible but - driving 45 mins everyday to work? Ipoh? Not a good idea. But then, the lecturers told him that, Selangor or Kuala Lumpur is the best place to work. You'll be exposed to mega construction that you could learn in soooo many ways. But, if he chose KL or Selangor, what about me? I'll stuck in hell (I mean, Perak) for a looooooong time - alone? NOOOOOO! I never want this. Please.

Thus, I called my advisor (sister, to be exact) and search some advice. Kak Ila is a very wise girl - although she usually tumbles herself in her love life, but she gave me the best advice. She told me that, "as a girlfriend, we should support our boyfriend. Ease his journey as a human, not to burden him. Your boyfriend is a very clever kid, a very excellent student. Give him a chance to learn, explore the world, and let him fly" Her words might sound very mature - but make total sense. I agreed.

That evening, I talked to him. He was a little bit surprised with my decision. A very mature decision, I shall say. I was calm as I said, I let him "fly", for real. He knew how crazy I would be if he's not around. And the fact that I let him continue his studies in Kuala Lumpur, was something he never expected.

So the problem is, oh hell.

The problem is, what if, okay. He might not be cheating on me, but I'm afraid that what if he falls for another girl? :'( He's far away and not on my sight now. I do trust him... I trust him with all my heart! But hey, anything is possible right?

yes. I want you. Only you. :'(

PROBLEM 3

I was elected to be the Vice Project Manager for "QS's Project Amal Sehari Bersama Warga Senior" this semester. Big responsibility. Surprisingly, the Project Manager for this project happens to be my boyfriend! Yes. I know, it sounds superbly awesome! However, that is not even a problem at all. Here's the thing. When my grandparents were alive, I was very small and I never had the chance to get close with them. I stayed in Johor Bharu when I was little and we visited our grandparents during school holidays. Unfortunately, my grandparents died as I grew up.

So, I don't even have a clue how to get close with old folks. Seriously. What type of activity should we do? What will make the old folks happy?

I've googled everything and I found nothing but shits and craps. No information at all. It popped out all kinds of advertisement regarding old folks. Sometimes I just felt like smashing my laptop for a moment. Stupid world website. I need you! Please, give me something useful :'(

So, any ideas peeps?

Exco Tertinggi Persatuan Perubahan

Diploma & Ijazah Sarjana Muda Ukur Bahan

UiTM PERAK, Kampus Seri Iskandar

*okay, find me! find me! :)

PROBLEM 4

I'm not even sure to consider this as a problem or just a story that I would like to share with my readers. At some point, I don't even understand what I learn in class. I swear to God, I tried so hard to focus which eventually I ended up "haaa? tapaham wehh". When I asked my classmates, all of them were like "tu laaa, aku pun tapaham. takpela." and I was like "TAKPELA?" =__="

Therefore, with the power invested in me, I forced my boyfriend who happens to be a genius to teach me every single thing.

The problem is, WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH ME? :(

PROBLEM 5

This semester, we learned a new subject called Fundamentals of Entrepreneurship. It's all about business and how to manage a company. Therefore, the whole class were divided into several groups, and we were asked to create out own company based on real business as a research. Thus, our mates made a vote - and they elected me to be the Project Manager. I was pretty excited yet shaky. Am I capable of holding big responsibilities and organizing the whole thing? Therefore, I pushed myself to do some extra research and I found the perfect thing to present to the panel for final presentation. A mega re-do of Coffee Planet. Brilliante, mademoiselle! :)

Everyone in the team agreed with my idea and decided to proceed. We mashed the intelligent brains of ours and came up with a new name, a new prospect and a new venture. The high-class coffee with affordable price, and Drive-Thru, and 24hours coffee station. Amazing? I know!!

However, here's the problem. (okay, here we go again.)

As a project manager, I love to keep things steady and well prepared. However, yesterday, the vice president (who happens to be my housemate) told me that, some of the "employees" are pissed off with the way I work.

1. someone told her that I am a perfectionist and it is very difficult & complex to work with me.

2. someone also told her that I am A TOTAL PAIN IN THE ARSE - because I am a perfectionist.

3. the person who is in number 2 said that it's hard to work in a group when there is a couple involved.

And now I was like "whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?"

okay, hear me out people.

A) I AM NOT A PERFECTIONIST. I JUST LOVE TO KEEP THINGS STRAIGHT & WELL PREPARED. is that even a crime??

B) WHAT THE HELL, I AM JUST DOING MY WORK HEREEEEEE

C) OH MY GOD, NOW YOU CHOOSE. YOU WANT ME TO LAY AROUND AND RELAX - DOING NOTHING, OR DIVIDE THE TASK AND "BEING A TOTAL PAIN IN THE ARSE"?

D) c'mon people, work with me here. I want to score an A+! Don't you?

E) regarding number 3, Okay. maybe it's my fault. I admit it. I'll change. Everybody deserves a second chance except for Hitler. Right?

The problem now is, I just can't help myself surrounded with these lazy humans who talked behind my back. Seriously. Now you guys made me think further why on Earth God invented the mouth to speak. Please voice out your opinion. Don't talk behind my back. Might as well as you shoot me with a Russian Roulette from the back. Don't you think so?

So now, should I continue be the so called BAD-ASS boss or just quit? or maybe change the way how I handle things?

I think I can change. Yeah. I prefer changing :)

PROBLEM 6

I drop a few subjects this semester in order to ease up my journey of a 3pointer student. Therefore, some subjects I am officially not involved with my boyfriend. However, there is a girl named *****, who happens to be my ~~sworn enemy~~ classmate - is obsessed with my boyfriend since the FIRST SEMESTER. Eventually, I was the princess who gets the prince and SHE ended up as the pauper or the villain who fails to fight for it. During the second semester, the pauper and I, we don't talk. I don't have the reason why but we just don't talk. I guess you can figure out why. I guess.

So the issue is now, the pauper now is in the same group with my boyfriend and they're about to go on a trip this weekend. TOGETHER.

Am I jealous? YES.

Can you just believe it, "the-girl-who-obsessed-with-your-boyfriend-is-now-going-on-a-trip-with-your-beloved-boyfriend" IN MY FACE! +_="

So yeah, my boyfriend wants me to join them.

Should I go? Or shouldn't I go?

If I go, I can prevent from any disgusting event which possibly may occur when THE GIRL is involved - but If I go, I'm afraid that those other friends of ours will be like "euw, does Naura really have to be like a glue stick with her boyfriend? Get a life Naura!"

If I don't go, I'll ended up miserable in my bed - worrying like hell - eventually, I'll be calling my boyfriend every 5 minutes just to check up on him. And if I don't go, I am giving THE GIRL the best chance to get along with my boyfriend and the perfect moment for her to flirt because I'm not there.

Should I go? Or shouldn't I go? :(

PROBLEM 7

Honestly, I can't control my emotions during PMS. All I did was cursing, arguing, yelling, and eating. Any suggestions?

okay. this is funny! LOL :')

and for the fourth time I read this.

this is now creepy =__="

OKAY. THERE YOU GO.

some might consider these problems are just trivial nagging.

As for me, I just can't sleep now.

Help? Please?

xoxo,

the-girl-who-thinks-that-she's-over-reacting,

me.

Raining Glitters

2011-12-13T10:45:00.001-08:00

Dear World,

I felt like a dashing princess dancing in the rain of glitters now. Why? Okay, as crazy as it sounds, I think I’m falling head over heels ALL OVER AGAIN with the same boy. YEAH, the SAME BOY. The feeling struck my heart like lighting and it is undeniably crazy that the both of us felt it together. It’s like the moment told us that forever is possible, and always is a must. Last Sunday was our 9th month of togetherness! :)

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

Okay, I just can’t believe what I just wrote. Waaargh, who cares?

Let me tell you something,
I wish I can share this feeling with the person I love the most – my mum.

She never believed in teenage love fest and all she did was

“awak jangan nak ber-boyfriend eh...study dulu”

Oh my, we’ve been in a relationship for 9 months now. You see, my mum thought that being in a relationship is a distraction. MAJOR DISTRACTION. Being in love was beyond my control. I really want to share all these amazing love stories of mine with her. This boy that I’m falling for is the one that I really admire.

1. He’s the dean’s list student that everyone wants to be with.
2. He’s the one that shoots the ball and score that all girls love to gush.
3. He’s the boy that my Ustaz calls him Ustaz in class.
4. He’s the guy that never when out at night when he’s back in Kelantan.
5. He’s the teacher when the lecturer is not around.
6. He’s the man who told me never to give up every time I broke down.
7. He’s the human who never gets tired to hear me whine, chatter, or babble.
8. He’s the person who always misses me.
9. He’s the boyfriend that I’ve always wanted.
10. He’s the guy I want to grow old with.

Okay, regarding all the current news we heard from the TV and radio, I don’t blame my mum for not wanting me be close around guys. Human trafficking, raping, and illegal marriage. My mum is the real life super woman! She took care of me with extra care and extreme tenderness :) I love you mum. Always.
Please don’t get me wrong, but I really love her. My mum is the best & no one can ever replace her. She's the best.
Here’s the deal. My life would be more than perfect if only I can just share with her about this boy that I fell in love with. I never consider that being in a relationship would be a distraction or jeopardize my career as a student and destroy my study life. Instead of those, being in a relationship teach me faith, believe, and actually inspired me to achieve my goals! :')

That is, if you're doing it the RIGHT way. Some couple may just madly in love with each other, call all day long, text all day long, sit and date all day long, finally get drag with the love wind and drift away with the velocity of the love drunk - and THAT is a complete distraction.

I'm 20 next year, and Alhamdulillah,

I know how to differentiate between gems and stones.

I do believe that sky has no limit,

but we as humans,

we shall never cross the line.

but if we do,

say hello to nightmare!

p/s :

Mummy, I promise you,

no matter with whom I’m in love with,

I will always remember that God comes first

I will never forget to study hard

to pass with flying colors!

I love you mummy!

Bittersweet Weekend

2011-12-03T20:51:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

I'm home this weekend,

and I've learnt a lot when I'm home.

I've tasted the bitter & the sweet.

The Bittersweet

* * *

The Bitter :

It doesn't matter home many new people come into your life when you're looking for that someone special, some who's going to be your only focus. If there's any doubt of them not being your someone special & your only focal point - then don't go creating future problems and do the right thing when it's evident they're not your someone special or someone you can't even be with. Be mature enough to call it off, put a stop, and say goodbye instead of leading someone on with false hopes. As hard as it may be, it's the right thing & the only thing to do to avoid future sorrow.

Life may not be easy as we imagined.

It's hard, it's complicated, twisted and it's complex.

It only took one mistake, a wrong decision, to destroy someone's future.

"please stop playing with fire. eventually you'll get burn."

* * *

The Sweetness :

A moment I shall not forget.

I met people from his family.

They're nice!

but I didn't have a chance to sit & talk with them.

We watched movie and stuff,

but I guess it's not enough.

Hope we'll meet again,

sooner or later, and maybe someday.

So,

this is the feeling eyh?

The feeling of overwhelmed and being part of him.

The feeling of excitement to be inside him.

The feeling of ecstatic.

A wonderful feeling.

footnote :

A very simple weekend,

with tears & smile.

:'(

Randomly Awesome!

2011-12-03T11:28:00.000-08:00

Before I start chattering about how something random could be something awesome, the pictures that I uploaded for this post is brought to you by :

this smiley little girl named Amira Sophia Ahmad Famy :)

apparently I just took all of the pictures from her Facebook profile,

and some of them are from the Bride's Facebook, and Abnag Firdaus's too.

*dear Ammar (the bright orange thingy behind this smiley girl),

you have the most awesome pose ever!

During the past semester break, I was given a special task by my own cousin, Kak Tika. She’s getting married and she asked me to conduct a wedding montage for her wedding reception in Shah Alam Clubhouse, Selangor. I was thrilled as soon as I heard the news when she actually wanted something creative from me. She had faith in me, and I’m overwhelmed.

Instead of just boring pictures gathered up which will be ended up as a boring slide show, I decided to pull a twist and make it more interesting by making the montage as a mini video clip of the Bride and Groom.

I asked Kak Tika & her beloved Amri to join me for a videography session in Bukit Cerakah Shah Alam. My mum followed us too, and she prepared her special homemade nasi lemak for all of us. My sister & her boyfie, Kak Ema & her hubby, my cousins; Najat & Abang Juan also tagged along.

It was really fun working with these joyful people and what a very tiring day! I was a little bit wrecked that morning, eventually; I manage to stabilize my mood swing.

As the videography session ended, I started to slog for the animation & graphics. However, I ended up Facebooking instead of slogging. Curse you Facebook! I HATE YOUUUUU. Ergh.

As the time flies, the wedding was around the corner and everyone in our big family was willingly to give a helping hand to the both bride and groom. All of us boost our energy & shoot straight to Klang. I was helping the bride’s big bro, Abang Aldrin (yes, he is also my cousin. Oh God, you have no idea how huge my family is. I really do have many cousins!) – we set up the bride & groom’s bedroom. The room was superbbbb! Very modern, and exclusive. Thumbs up to Abang Aldrin for the talented touch of awesomeness!

exclusively awesome huh? :)

the gifts :) (eh, hantaran dalam english apa haa?)

20.11.2011

a date to remember for this two love doves!

KAK TIKA & AMRI

(yes, look at the date! ergh. I envy you guys!)

*habis lah kalau camni. macam mana nak kawin? tarikh cun dah terlepas.

oh God.

I'm depressed now.

ergh.

okay. stop being dramatic Naura!

Everyone in the house that night could feel how exciting this wedding would be, including me. My sister was the bridesmaid. We went to Ariani to find the perfect hijab to match with her bridesmaid amazing glittering outfit. I really love the color. It was silvery silver with blue lace which successfully brightens up my sister’s skin tone.

the bubbly "pengapit" :)

As for my parents, they were the Master of The Ceremony (MC) for the wedding day. (Okay, finally. Now I know where I get the talent to speak-in-front-of-the-public from.)

aceceh! MC sama padan lah! good job mummy, ayah :)

Not to mention the bride’s dress. IT WAS OVER THE TOP! The color, the texture, the flow, it was PURRRRFECT. I just love how the rich color blended in and didn’t wash out the glowing bride. The dress was magnificent. Kak Tika bought the fabric and gave to the best tailor in town to sew the dress for her at the famous boutique in Seksyen 7, Shah Alam (Chanteq Boutique). The boutique gave an excellent service, including custom made heels to match with the dress. They also provide the same service to our local artist Tomok for his wedding too.

Everyone in the family wore chocolatey-brown-skin-tone colored outfit. We looked awesome! I was wearing a dark brown traditional baju kurung from Bandung, Indonesia – which my mum suggested me to, & inspired by my favorite Katy Perry, I wore a big big BIG ribbon on the top of my head just to put a little dash on my outfit J *apparently, I looked like a big Minnie Mouse. BIG Minne Mouse. Get it? BIG? *sigh.

*yes readers, I'm still obsessed with Justin Bieber!

one big chocolatey creamy happy family! :)

auuuwww, :3 king-a-day! (raja sehari, get it?) :)

special performance! by Yuna :)

yes, I know. She's awesome!

Apparently, Yuna is the Kak Tika (the bride, in case you readers forgot) 's best friend :)

So, the hall was full with the honorable guests and the family crew. Everyone was enjoying the moment, there was also a photo booth, a wishing tree, a candy center, and also ice cream machine! It was all my cousin, Kak Dee’s idea! She is Kak Tika’s sister-in-law. Kak Dee is undeniably talented. She manage to coordinate all of her idea into reality. The photo booth was an extraordinare! The props was funny & creative. The pictures were taken by a rising photographer, Taufiq (Kak Dee’s little bro). I ended up loving myself at the photo booth. haha!

here's some of the pics during the "akad nikah" session

the venue of the akad nikah session :) a very aesthetic design mosque!

please, for once. please ignore Yuna and focus on me! I have cheek balls :(

nak diet ah pasni.

adoi.

Everyone had an amazing time.

So, my sister will be next in-line. Any ideas for a superb wedding like this one?

Let's crack our minds, and lay out some thoughts. crack crack crack!

p/s:

okay readers.

I dah cop tarikh wedding I.

it's going to be on the First of May 2015.

So apparently, it's labour day, which means PUBLIC HOLIDAY.

do come & no excuses, okay you all?

yes.

okay.

enough.

please stop merepek naura.

okay bye.

footnote ; more pictures will be uploaded soon! :)

Dear UiTM Perak, haha!

2011-11-24T21:44:00.001-08:00

Currently listening to Helena Beat by Foster The People

I arrived safely in Perak a few days ago. Do ignore the previous post regarding how-badly-I-don't-really-want-to-go-back-to-Perak. You know what they say, once a Perak-ian, always a Perak-ian :)

Here I am. On a boring Friday afternoon. Everything changes now. It starts with a brand new introduction, different chapter, but still remains me as the main character. Well, Naura Nasuha is a NR student now. I live outside the campus. I rent a house with my friends and course mates. A very moderate & comfy house which only took 2 minutes only drive to our university. Fully furnished. I bring along all of my fluffy toys to keep me accompany. I brought Chemaymao the Crocodile, George the White Teddy, Cik Hijau the Guava from Plants VS Zombies, and my favorite Travis the Teddy with Pink Sweater. My housemates are Yana, Helena, Ain, Nita, Eha, and Imaa. I was a bit shy at this moment. I’m sure all of them are looney as I am as soon as we get to know each other better J

I went to the QS Perubahan Meeting yesterday night. I was one of the main board of the directors. Again, I was elected as the MC for Perubahan’s Bi-Annual Grand Meeting. Curse you Sheila! WHY MEEEEE????????? WHYYYYYY? -___-“ as soon as my name & Fahmy’s name was mentioned as the MC, some of the guys were like “hoyeaaaah! Naura shuffle.”

Shit. It was alongggg time ago. And it was Bobby’s idea to shuffle on the stage during the QS Dinner, and what the hell, I was just doing my job. =_=” maybe it was a mistake – or not. I think it was an express ticket to accomplish my suicidal social mission.

Some part of me just can’t wait to explore more of my exciting journey as a student. Nevertheless, another part of me was patiently waiting what will happen next.

I’m not ready for any unnecessary drama. I’m not ready for any craps & bullshits that will bug me along the way. Even if I’m supposed to be in a drama, or accidentally involve in it, please, please, please GOD, pleaseeeeee let me be the one who gets to save the day! J

2011-11-20T06:44:00.000-08:00

okay, thanks to Esma Najat, my dearest twinnie cuzzie for tagging me. Ajat, this tag of yours successfully decreases my level of super boredom while waiting for my mummy to prepare for dinner :) and I'll be tagging the same questions to everyone who reads this.

who is your idol ?
I am my own idol. haha! :)

with who you love to spend time with ? why ?
Family & Friends - sometimes they can be the pain in the *arse* but hey - I love them! :) always!

do you like to be alone ?
oh c'mon, do you? =___="

will you helped your enemy if they needs your help ?
yeah sure, whatever. everyone deserves a help.

are you funny ?
When I make jokes, I laugh at the same time. wait. is that funny? :)

do you think you are pretty/handsome ?

I'm pretty, I'm hot, and you're not. so deal with it. :) haha!

*you are beautiful~ no matter what they say~ cuz words can't bring me down~ lalala~

did anyone know your secret ? who ?
I'm the REAL Hannad Montana! whoops! You just knew my secret :) awesome huh?

what is your opinion about politics ?
Dear politicians, let's compromise & WORLD PEACE PLEASEEEEEEE? :(

when the last kiss and hug to your parents ?
Just a few seconds ago! Goodnight hugs & kisses! :3 want some? haha! :)

who is you best friend ?
Intan Liyanaaaaaaaaaa! oh. wait. no. She's my girlfriend :) ooops! my bad :3

where is the best place that you go ? and want to go ?
I've been to Paris when I was a little girl, and I would be thrilled if I can visit Paris again! May I? :(

Speechless Mistake

2011-11-20T05:01:00.001-08:00

Dear World,

I'm sorry. I give up.

Not going to Perak.

p/s :

I didn't say goodbye because we'll meet again.

InsyaAllah.

xoxo,

Naura Nasuha

Colors with Paint!

2011-11-14T09:31:00.000-08:00

*credits to my awesome friend, Nuaiman for the editing the pictures :)

I learned a lot about friendships. I lost people that were once my best friends. I lost old friendships that I thought would last beyond high school. People I once trusted ended up showing me the opposite. Although I lost those people, I also built more valuable relationships with the people who stayed. I kept the friends that really mattered. I gained stronger friendships with people who were there for me. I realized that besides family, I only have a few people I can truly rely on, but that's okay. Having a huge group of friends isn't that great when most can care less about you. In the end, having a few valuable friendships with people who really have your back is always worth so much more. I'm proud with what I have now. Thanks friends, I love you! :)

A few weeks ago, my very close friends & classmates from college gather up here in Shah Alam. So, my plan was to drag all of them to Sunway Pyramid's Ice Rink, and I-City SnowWalk. Everyone was thrilled as we decided to throw ourselves out in the ice rink. Lucky me, I've been skating since I was a little girl. Clearly, I need to practice - A LOT! =.=' crap. Well hey, I'm not an expert, but I still can skate! :) However, I managed to teach Fahmy & Nuaiman to skate. Nuaiman was a quick-learner, whereas Fahmy was the opposite. I giggled hysterically every time Fahmy grabbed me as I glided with him around the rink. He kept blaming his large-sized foot. The truth was, well, he didn't actually had the initiation to try. Okay, everyone had a great time! Not to mention, my favorite gal - Aliah & Idham, both of them a first-timer too, but I'm impressed! They skate very well :D Really!

I look hideous! *and I deserve a sucker punch for this -___-" anyone?

Ashrie, Sheila & Bella waited for us outside the rink. As soon as we assembled, I decided to brought them to my favorite Subway Restaurant :) It turns out to be, they enjoyed it & I just found out that it was Sheila's favorite too. Please don't underestimate the power or 6-inch stuffed sandwich! It's my favorite :') really.

PARMESON OREGANO pleaseeeeee? :)

On the following day, they had tea at my house, and I served my very own spaghetti bolognese :-) I hope they enjoyed it. I'm not a great cook, but I just looooove to cook. Since my house is only a couple of minutes from I-City, all of them perform their mahgrib prayer at my house before heading straight to SnowWalk.

okay, IGNORE the caption in the picture! *but hey, thanks Nuai :)

OMG, it was my first time too! :D All the winter memories from Scotland, UK flashing back through me as I stepped in that valley of fake snow & shimmering ice. It was freezin' cold, & fun too! :) Moreover, it's cheap! With only 20 bucks, you can experience the snow! Isn't it nice? :D

from left ; Fahmy, Idham, Naura (yes! aku tengah!), Nuaiman, Ashrie

*ThankYou Bella, for being the most adorable photographer ever!

All of us wanted to end the night with some "laser tag" fight. Laser Tag fight is like a paintball battle, but minus the pain & the palettes (bullets). We're using LASER GUN now :D how awesome is that? Unfortunately, all of us were running out of bucks :( We also ride the spinner & took some pictures. The night was simple yet exciting. We also went to the arcade which exactly looks like a fun fair. Hell I saw the big and fluffy seahorse! IT'S SO FLUFFY I WANNA DIE :'( In order to get the fluffy seahorse, I have to throw the hoop in on of the bottle. Okay, I suck. I don't even try & I know. I suck. :( I cheered myself up by buying a cotton candy! Yeay!

So all of us swam under the neon lights of i-City.

*okay, perhatikan mak datin di tengah-tengah gambar ini :)

I had a spectacular moment with these amazing rascals & I wish we can do it again :) I love these people. They cheered me up. But oh well, bye bye Bella :( She'll be leaving us & off to UiTM Shah Alam for an express track! Oh boy, lucky her. Good Luck Bella :D

*I was the one who gave the name "Bella" :) I hope she remembered, and I know she will, kan Bella? Okay, thanks for everything! Take care. ILOVEYA, and clearly, missing you already!

p/s :

shit, awak! lepas ni siapa nak duduk depan kita time exam kalau Nabilah Hanim takde? :(

And for those who are still with me in Perak, all of you are more than welcome to join another adventure for this upcoming semester! DO COME. more exciting & explosive plans are coming for you guys!

till then,

xoxo

Naura Nasuha

From Hong Kong to China with Love

2011-10-31T22:06:00.000-07:00

I decided to spend some girly time during this semester break and followed my sister, my mum and her friends to China for a real vacation.

One week in China, equals to thousands of happiness and millions of extravagant experiences I've gained. I still remembered how excited I was to witness the wonders of the world right before my eyes. My definition of 'wonders' is certainly not the Great Wall of China. I meant by the shopping street and leather market :-) It was explosive! Our mission to go to China is to shop till we drop! Of course, we did. I ain't just drop, we also pop and bop! :)

Let's just say, my sister, my mum & her friends are the most awesome shopaholic divas ever! :)

The Shopaholic Divas & Me

We started our journey in Hong Kong. Our mission was to have fun - shopping. Yes, we did nothing but shopping. We even skipped some sight seeing venues in order to spend more time at the Ladies Street shopping market. Ladies Street is a shopping paradise for fashionistas! Its packed here - but it is slightly more spacious than our KL's Petaling Street. The main power for shopping here in Hong Kong is to bargain. Yes. Bargain. Don't give up and always know how to communicate well with the Chinese.

Well in Shenzen (China), the locals prefer Mandarin, so I considered it as a solved problem. However, I'm stuck in Guangzhou (China) & Hong Kong - they totally dig the Cantonese style. Worst, they don't even understand English. Finally, hand signal was the last resort.

This market had progressed to sell all sorts of tourist knick-knacks such as I Love Hong Kong T-Shirts, as well as souvenirs, clothes, party outfits, bags, and accessories for both men and women. My mum and I went crazy and both of us were like "Girls-Gone-Wild" unlike my sister who was very calm, relax and laid back.

On the following day, we continued our shopping quest in Shenzen, China. It is a very modern city, only 28 years old. The locals are young and active. Believe it or not, you won't be able to find any old folks hangin' around the city. Our awesome & friendly tourist guide, Chen, once said that Shenzen is a city of opportunity and freedom. The youngsters of China actually come to Shenzen for work and have fun. When they're old, they went back to their hometown. See? :-)

In my personal point of view, yes. The architecture of the buildings and sky scrapper here is magnificent. In Shenzen, we also went to the Windows of the World and Windows of China. For the first time ever, we went to see the Chinese Cultural Show in the Imperial Theater. It was a jaw dropping and excellent performance! The stage was incredible and everything was spectacular. The performance was about the History of China. About the Emperor, and the army of China and how they save the Princess, - it was great :-)

After spending a few days in Shenzen, we went to another state in China called, Guangzhou. The Digital Market, Leather Market, Jade Center & the Silk Center. It was fabulous! The silk was original, super soft and super smooth (and expensive too). Not to mentioned how crazy these Shopaholic Divas were as we arrived at the Jade Center. Everyone bought the Jade Jewel Center as it is original and beautiful design (and again, it's expensive too!). Nevertheless, we managed to get a super special discount as Malaysian tourists. It happens to be, the owner of the company was born in Ipoh, Perak Malaysia. He was thrilled to see Malaysian customers in his Jade Factory Center. As an appreciation, he gave a super duper discount for all of us :) yeah, we just got lucky!

In Guangzhou, we also went on a cruise across the Pearl River.

Yeah, the view? AWESOME & SPEECHLESS

We also stopped by a several Chinese Tea Herbs Center for some refreshment. They served us some Chinese Tea and believe me - it tastes like sh*t. =,=' I was smiling as I slurped the tea, but inside, I felt like smashing my head with a knife. (it seems like I'm a very good actress!) Somehow, it was one of the greatest experience I've gained here in China. Really.

We went to Maqam Saidina Shabi Saad Abu Waqas, the uncle of our Prophet, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, and also to the FIRST MOSQUE in China! It was ancient and very inspiring. Really. I've never seen something that is so old and calm in my life. It was a historical memory.

Finally, after one whole week discovering other culture and travelling to the other side of the world, all of us enjoyed the vacation and went back home safely :) Alhamdulillah, home sweet home!

*more pictures will be uploaded :)

Recycling Memories

2011-10-19T04:36:00.000-07:00

A few days ago I decided to clean up my room & get rid off my junks. Thus, I went through all of my stuff and found a sealed & dusty box. Damn, the box was heavy and it wrote "21 Feb 2007" on the top of it - which I can't seem to remember clearly what actually happened on that particular date! The box challenged my level of curiosity. Without giving a second thought, I unwrapped the box excitedly.

Here it goes.

I was once a 15-years-old girl who often gets caught in the middle and trying my best to make everything work & struggling to achieve the best for my PMR examination to make my parents proud of me again after scoring 5As in UPSR in year 2004. I was the prefect that everyone in the school deserves to hate - unfortunately, I met someone & I fell in love. In my eyes, he was flawless instead of perfect! As a result, I was in a relationship with him for a very loooooong time.

So, how does this relate?

The box was fulled with love memories, including 56 love letters, key chains & souvenirs, necklace, cards, a diary, and all the stuff that a boyfriend could gave to his girlfriend! Those stuff were from him.

Believe it or not, I went through all the love letters that he gave me as tears were rolling down my cheek. C'mon, it's not that I missed him. Seriously, it's not. It's just that, as old memories were flashing back to you, you'll start to think about the future. One thing you might don't know about me - I'm afraid of the future. I'm afraid what will happen next-? Nobody knows.

Well, the love letters that I read that night was superbly hilarious! It was cute; with all the lovey dovey words, and sweet promises, but I was so young and naive! At that moment, for once I felt like the world is beautiful and harmless! Not to mention, I was completely stuck in my own so called fairy tale land, and unable to get back down to Earth! However, what I've been through was a real romance. It might sound silly, but it was real.. and great too! Haha! Unfortunately, it wasn't the right love... I accept that. After almost 2 years with him, we decided to split and go on our separate ways to achieve our dreams.

"There is a big difference between great love and the right love,"

- Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl TV Series

*yes Chuck Bass & Blair Woldrof, I heart you both :')

After we broke up, I actually realized that I've learnt a lot of things based on that relationship. I learn about stick to my own priority, independence, faith, and trust.

It's true what people actually told me, "There is a reason why that people in your past don't make it into your future."

*sigh

I'm happy now. I vow to be a better girlfriend everyday as I learn how to improve myself regarding the past relationship. I love my current life and my current boyfriend who always taught me about the importance of life, and always supports me.

Alhamdulillah, I am happy now :-)

"If I get married one day, and you pun kahwin, we might be lost contact tauu..

and I will miss you.."

- him, the person I used to fall for on the 21st of Feb 2011

Nevertheless, the question remains;

am I supposed to keep the box or disposed it?

yes it's true.

I moved on. Really.

If I die Young

2011-10-12T22:52:00.001-07:00

Face it. I'm not in the Band Perry and if I die young, I'll be missing a lot of things. First and foremost, I won't be able to have my dream wedding. Next, I won't have a chance to make love with my husband, have babies, to have my own kids and raise my own family. I won't be able to achieve my dream to be a Professor with a PhD. I will also didn't stand a chance to make both of my parents proud of me. I want them to see how I grew up, become a successful woman and have a successful career. I won't be able to buy them their dream house with a huge lawn and an enormous kitchen. I won't be there to cheer up my sister and my brother's wedding. I won't get to play with their kids and be an aunt. I won't get to attend my friends' wedding too. I won't have a chance to drive my own car that I bought with own money. Finally, if I die young, I'll be missing all of you and get to spend time with all of you for a very little while. That sucks.

Alice in Not-So-Wonderland

2011-10-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

Things didn't work out pretty well for me today. It's not even midnight yet but I've learnt my lesson for today.

LIFE IS UNFAIR, ACCEPT IT & MOVE ON

There are times in our life, that we may feel we are left alone and being pushed hard by whatever circumstances in life. For some, they use this moment to make them stronger, wiser and better person. But for some, they didn't fight back. They just accept the reality and concede on the great defeat. These are the people who will not be successful in life. Success is a series of failures that we need to overcome everytime and emerged victorious in the end.

In this case, I'm the one who's stepping back and cry at the corner of the room. I think, I've been beaten up by my own destiny. The fact that this life is so unfair, it made me turn into a very MAD & CRAZY PERSON when I think about it. I was so upset last night that I actually scolded everyone around me when I woke up this morning. Well, it was never my intention to yell at people first thing in the morning on purpose, but as the blood rushing through my veins with rage, the anger and fury was unstoppable. My brother was being accused for something he didn't do. My boyfriend was being scolded for small silly little things he did. Finally I yelled at my sister on the phone. I was supposed to give her an advise, instead, I screamed like hell that I almost lost my voice. I'm sorry guys for being such a total pain in the ass this morning. :-(

I think I woke on the wrong side of the bed. Although at some point I really wanted to blame the world that nobody on this planet could ever understand me, however it's just difficult to blend in with all the humans in the world with different styles and means to survive in life.

Wanna know why I'm so upset and how I jump into conclusion that my life is totally unfair? Naah.. I rather keep in personal. Let me give you a clue, "don't get your hopes up too high, because eventually you'll crash on the land too"

I grew up with my parents to guide me on my side. They taught me how to handle crisis, problems and obstacles in a very mature yet effective way. Trials, difficulties and problems are my constant companion before. And yet, I fought back and use these misfortunes to become what I am today. Same thing happen to my friend of a friend. Now he was addicted to illegal drugs and a drop out from school. Lots of people have the same fate, because they accept defeat early in life. They are just contented in saying that life is unfair, and circumstance makes them what they are today.

Whatever circumstances we have in life, we are still the one controlling its outcome. It is still up to us to lead our life to where we want us to be. Blaming the circumstances and use it to justify our present condition will not help. It will only hinder us to move forward and continue to live our life. Trials and difficulties will always be there to set us off course, but we can handle it if we really have the right attitude in life.

LIFE IS UNFAIR, AND SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO WORK HARD IN ORDER TO MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE. IN MY SITUATION FOR TODAY, MY HAPPINESS HAS BEEN CONFISCATE UNEXPECTEDLY WITH THE BLINK OF AN EYE AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I'M GONNA DO.

well okay, at the end of the day, I realize that we must grateful of what we have now. I have my family & friends, that support me everyday. :') I just can't imagine my life without them. They are larger than life and I love you guys.

p/s: I would like to thank to Macalintal for such a lovely post I've read which inspires me to move on and realize that I'm Alice but in Not-So-Wonderland :-)

7 years of Roses and Thorns

2011-10-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

I met her when I was thirteen. She was adorable and such a lovely friend to me. I never thought that both of us will ended up being best-girlfriends until today. 7 years of friendship taught me a lot of things. I love her so much! She's always here for me although we were thousand miles apart.

However, today I just realize that I've made one of the most foolish mistake of my life. I never should have let this happen. Frankly, I know this sort of day will come. And if it does, I swore to God that I would give up anything in order for her to be happy again - with me. That is what I swore last year. I don't want to lose my one and only girlfriend. She meant everything to me. We share stuffs and secrets, we hug each other and we hang out once in a while.

There you go. That's the issue. The black bold sentences.

I'm not a very good friend. I ditched our dates for other stuffs and family events. I cancelled our outing session just to be with my family. Sometimes I have to call it off just to satisfy my mum's order and I wished she knew how sorry I was.

Apparently, she claimed that she felt like we're drifting away.

Shit.

I know sooner or later she would say that.

I don't blame her for getting tired with all of my excuses and for cancelling our dates. I don't blame her if she's already fed up when I ditched our date. I also don't blame her when she loses her excitement every time she asked me out.

My hands are tied, I'm guilty and I'm raising my white flag.

However, this year is going to be different. I have 6 weeks to make it up to her.

I know I will.

I'm gonna do whatever it takes just to make our relationship bloom and sparkle again.

Dearest IL,

I'm sorry and ILYMTYCEI :')

*some part of me want you to read this. but some part of me expecting you NOT to read this because as I type my feelings out tonight, tears were rolling down my cheek.

(and it's embarrassing! ergh. :( such a cry baby!)

**you know who you are and ILOVEYOU.

I'm sorry.

Better on The Other Side

2011-10-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

It was about 4 o'clock in the evening as I was surfing the net & downloading some trivial software - and a few minutes later my mum knocked on my bedroom door and told me something that almost blew my mind. My Uncle Long had passed away. Innalillahwainaillahhirajiun..

Instead of crying hysterically, my body was numb and my brain was empty.

Well, 50% of me felt like

"It's okay, eventually everyone will go back to Him one day. It is a way of life"

however, another 50% of me felt

"what?! DEAD ALREADY?! I was in Perak all this time & I didn't even have a chance to visit him yet!"

But it's true and it is already written in the Holy Al-Quran that each human being on this planet Earth, will face death and no one can escape death. I calmed myself down, and recite a Surah Yaasin for him. Frankly, I am sooooo not good when it comes to death or dealing with goodbyes. At some point of moment, I could just simply cry, cry, and cry all over again for the whole day. Nevertheless, this time, tears were rolling down my cheek emotionally and I was calmed.

My Uncle Long is a very wise man. A responsible, an optimist and a lovable man. He was very well-known for his benevolence of giving Islamic view and thoughts of life. A very religious man who never afraid to opine anything and never gave up on his family. After both of my grandparents passed away when I was a little girl, he was the oldest member of our family. He took care of us with delicate, tenderness & care. He is a very old, yet strong and a wise man. I am proud to be his niece and I miss him so much now. I miss the way how he lectures & motivates us to be a better Muslim & Muslimah.

Uncle Long, thank you for everything.

Ya Allah s.w.t,

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat &

ditempat kan dengan golongan-golongan

hamba-Mu yang beriman & soleh..

"I look up in the sky and I wonder why?

Why you had to go, go?

I know it's better on the other side...

You were chosen from the start,

Never gonna let you go,

I know it's better on the side"

- The Game feat. Chris Brown & Boyz II Men

When All The Right Reasons Goes Wrong

2011-09-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

Dear Ladies and Gentlemen,

Sighing may consider as one of my adverse habit I did nowadays. Sometimes I felt like a total failure and a pure douche bag after facing a very difficult day. Is it me, or am I actually carrying a bag of burden every day as I attend the class? The subjects I learnt for this semester is obviously damaging my brain and successfully enhanced my knowledge and thinking skills. The subjects are super duper challenging and more complicated. Common sense, logical thinking, and massive knowledge must require in order mastering this kind of subject, Measurement of Construction Works, Principles of Structure, Construction in Economics, Building Services and Construction Technology. It is like you learn how to solve a puzzle but you kept losing the pieces. Thank God it is over now. All of my classes ended a few days ago and I felt – relief! Well, I simply amaze how fast the time flies. It seems like yesterday I was only a tiny clueless freshmen and now I’m about to be a …. Senior? Hehe!

However, it is now time to slog as the final exam is just around the corner. I need to stay focus and maintain my CGPA. For now, 3.37 is quite OK and good – but not excellent. I need to score more than this in order to fly up up up in the sky and to get a good job for future. I’m trying so hard to paint my picture with millions of colors. To be honest, I’m quite worried now. What if my destiny was never to achieve my dreams? What if my road to success is actually just another clever story that people might laugh about it? What if it is already written that I may not be able to reach for the sky? C’mon, I can’t deny fate and I can’t fight the destiny that was written for me right? Yes, I can’t deny it – but everyone has the chance to change it. It is actually possible for us as a normal human being to change our own road to survival if we have courage and believe in both of our hands and faith in our hearts.

My readers,

Well, I’m not an idiot but I’m not a genius. You see, I am not Einstein’s daughter and I am not that intelligent or clever. Unlike some people, I need to work really hard and study even harder in order to achieve excellent result. I need to push myself hard and that is what I do for the past couple of days. Frankly, it is exhausting. Sometimes I don’t feel like it is worth it to struggle every single day and at times I raise my white flag and gave up. Nevertheless, giving up is not an option for me right now. I have to slog or die. Yes, I’m such a total pain in the ass and I beat myself too much. I never give myself a break and all I did was forcing my brain to think in a thousand ways. Nothing is too much when it comes to learning and studying. Somehow, I think I just switched off one of the buttons in my brain a few seconds ago due to excessive amount of stress I pursue while I was studying. As a result, here I am, sitting in front of the laptop, updating my blog, and stalking my friends’ Facebook page with choki-choki paste in my hands while listening to Maddi Jane. (Oh My God she is more than AWESOME)

Okay, let me get this straight. Stop beating around the bush and here goes the truth! I’m sorry mummy, daddy, family, friends and to all acquaintance. I think there is something wrong with me and I couldn’t figure it out. Until one day, I started seek some answers and do some research and finally – my prayers had been answered like a shooting star. At first I was reluctant to inform my mummy and yes, I didn’t tell her what on Earth is going on with me until today. Well, here it goes. I am Naura Nasuha and I am now suffering from a disease called Meusaborethophia. Yes. The symptoms are undeniably obvious and I’m afraid to tell everyone around me. I felt anxious all the time, I sweat a lot, I always get panic attack (it is like heart attack but it doesn’t involve the heart), I worry too much, I felt like blackout (it is like you’re about to faint but you’re eyes are open and awake) when I’m stressed and I felt angry all the time. Please, don’t worry. It is not contagious. I’m not sure if it’s really a disease or just common illness and sickness that I’m having. One thing for sure, it is an ordinary type of phobia that I had invented myself. Yes, I invented myself. Meusaborethophia is a type of phobia that erm…… okay. This is boring. I’m sorry. I just can’t pull myself together right now. I felt like falling apart and crash into millions of pieces. I should be studying right now and memorizing all the sketches of building construction structure and here I am crapping about some disease that I invented myself. Wait, I think I’m dying. Ergh.

FOOTNOTE :

I think this is one of the crappiest posts ever! I’m sorry for being weird and thank you very much for spending a few minutes to torture yourself by reading this crappy post.

Oh Oh, I just drew something and I want you to meet this animation I just scribbled.

Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!

1. Ya, tudung nya seperti Hana Tajima (auuuwwww)

2. Dress nya pulak ditaja oleh TOPSHOP (peh, kelassss!)

3. Dia pegang bunga ; maksudnya seorang gadis yang ayuuuu

4. Memakai heels dari ALDO (phoow!)

5. Senyuman yang sangat alalaaa :)

6. Kenapa tak pakai pink? Why purple? (purple melambangkan kematangan...)

7. NANA LAILA? ya, gabungan nama NAura NAsuha = NANA, manakala LAILA pula, nama yang sangat menarik dan comel :) Seriously, I sangat suka nama LAILA. One day InsyaAllah, I want my daughter named Laila :D pretty! heeeee :3

8.COMEL KAN DIA NIH?

(cepat cakap COMEL! Say it NOW! NOWWW!)

P/S :

I swear to God I’m bored right now. Oh man, I think I need to have a nap.

When The Midnight Writer Confessed...

2011-08-27T10:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

It has been awhile since my last post. Tonight I'm going to blog again.

Okay, I'm about to confess. So here it goes!

Each and every year, I wouldn't be as excited as you are during the Raya festive. Why? Well before I lay out all of my several powerful reasons, please shut up & don't judge me. Let me explain.

Firstly, unlike most of you, I don't have a kampung, and I've never been to a kampung. (yes people, it explains everything) Both sides of my grandparents passed away since I was just only a little girl. Worse, I've never met dad's parents at all. They were gone to the other world before I was born. Thus, I don't have anywhere to go for "balik kampung", which makes me a kampungless-girl yam a ketupat (Oh God, WHY MEEEEEEEEEE? WHYYYYYY!) .(euw, is that even a word?) yes, poor me. Trust me, I had never bakar a lemang before or andiv>However, in the television telemovie Raya or drama makes it look very fascinating! Shit, it looks exciting! I wonder how it feels like having a kampung. A timber construction walls, a very peaceful surrounding, and a nature friendly environment - I mean, how does it feel? :-(

Nevertheless, my aunts, uncles and my cousins are around me all the time. They live in the city nearby! Some of them are from Kuala Lumpur and most of them stayed in Shah Alam. Not to mention, half of them are living in Johor Bharu. Therefore, it is now a tradition that my family will held an open house or a "makan-makan" festive on the first of Syawal. So yeah, all of you are more than welcome to my crib on the First of Syawal every year! :-)

In a nutshell, actually I love my Raya. In my point of view, Raya is all about gathering and catching up with your whole family despite the forgiving and forgiveness thingy. It's fun!

"wehh...kau pe cerita weh??"

Okay here's the something I just thought about.

Well, a few weeks ago, as I was scrolling the Facebook news feeds, one of my friend wrote something that really caught my eye. I wanted to disagree with the statement, but naahh... Sometimes reality bites.

This person, clearly has a point. It is crystal clear that some people just say those MAAF ZAHIR BATIN in order just to simplify the meaning of Aidilfitri. This is reality. Some people they don't even mean it. They just say it with an empty heart. C'mon, once someone spread their forgiveness, they should actually repent and never repeat their wrong doings ever again. That is the true meaning of forgiveness.

Oh well, normal people in a crazy world. We'll never know. Enough said.

So back to the topic, I always wonder how my life could be if I have a kampung and how my Raya celebration would be if I have a kampung. My mum always told me since I was a little girl to find my own husband who owns a kampung so that I can feel the experience the kampung thingy (jom jerit ramai-ramai, kampung! kampung! kampung! heee annoying kan? haha!)

Please don't get me wrong, but DAMN, SERIOUS I TERINGIN SANGAT NAK PERGI KAMPUNG AND JUMPA ITIK, AYAM, AND PEGANG LEMBU SECARA LIVE :-( LEMANG TU NAK BAKAR CANE? PAKAI LIGHTER KE, MANCIS KE?! CAMANE?! KENAPA KETUPAT KENE ANYAM? PAKAI KETUPAN INSTANT NONA JE TAKLEH KE? SAMA JE RASA DIA KANNN?? KAN???!

*sangat ber-emotional ye cik kak! sabar, sabar T_T boypren awak tu ada kampung, pergi kawin dengan dia cepat-cepat. nanti dapat lah pegang lembu, itik, ayam, etc. haha! :)

Oh well, I hope its not too late, but hey - SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE! :-)

The fun part, my family and I went shopping on the third day of Syawal. Hehe.

Falling Stars ; Football or Girlfriend?

2011-08-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

So it happened last night when it’s about 2 o’clock in the morning and my tummy begins to crumble. God, I was starving! Not to mention, I was stumbling and drowning in tears with my assignments, the excessive workload while waiting for my boyfriend to call my cell and pick me up for Sahur. It is some kind of a routine to have my Sahur with him around 2 o’clock in the morning at the cafeteria. My college was about a few meters away from his, so he really doesn’t mind waiting for me to get ready and dressed up.

However, here’s the catch. As we arrived at the cafeteria, it was packed with boys. Each of those male eyes were staring & glazing at the very the television and my boyfriend quickly picked a seat right in front of that darn television. A live football match was on. Manchester United VS Tottenham FC.

So I guess it’s normal when a boyfriend picks over a live football match rather than spending time with his girlfriend. I know it seems pretty annoying. However, the truth bites. In my own perspective, isn’t it a major interest in football makes our boyfriend a man? A true solid masculine man? Yes! Unless you prefer your boyfriend to join you with your girlfriends, sit around a little corner putting on lip gloss and gossiping about your past, current, and future event all day long.

Nevertheless, at first I was okay with the fact he was joining the crowd and watching football. I was really okay with it. Somehow it almost chocked me to death mentally and abused me emotionally when…

Girlfriend: Awak, awak nak makan apa awak?

Boyfriend: Haaa…

Girlfriend: Awak, kita cakap nihh… nak makan apa?

Boyfriend: Hah, hah, hah!! SHOOT!!!

Girlfriend: …………….

Boyfriend: ………………….

Girlfriend: Awak…awak sahur nak makan apa nih?

Boyfriend: Hmmm…..

Girlfriend: ………………………………………………..

5-7minutes later,

Boyfriend: Eh, awak cakap apa tadi??

What the hell-? I tried to control my temper as my blood was racing through the veins with rage and anger. The fact that he chose football match over me was officially annoyed me and strictly unacceptable. The saddest part was, when I have no power to stop him.

I believe there are tons of girls out there were emotionally injured just like me when it comes to our senses that our boyfriends are football maniacs! Or maybe even worse, like cancelling on a date or a dinner reservation just for to join with his guy friends watching a football match at a mamak restaurant. I can imagine how it feels like. Like a falling star. Crashed on Earth and feeling like wanting to explode but hopeless.

I still remember how one of my girlfriend cried on my shoulder, complaining how stressed she was regarding how her boyfriend treated her. The boyfriend of hers didn’t pick up his cell phone when she called, always cancel their date, didn’t inform her where he went or when he gets back, and prefer to hang out with his boyfriends rather than accompany her to go shopping or to the movies. She felt beaten up and unappreciated. I was sympathized on what might had gone through her relationship and in my point of view, this is normal. In the end of the day, she was confused with her relationship. She claims that his boyfriend was lack of commitment and attention. It was partially true. However, the questions remains, does her boyfriend really loved her or not?

The equation is simple. A true relationship is based on love and trust. No matter how many times your boyfriends ditches you and cancel your date, the most important is his heart. His feeling towards you is pertinent and crucial more than anything.

There are many types of boyfriends in this world. Some might want you for fun. Some might want you for real. Based on my latest research, males have poor skills when it comes expressing their feelings. They want you, but they never showed it. As a result, we felt unappreciated and dump him. When we confront to him regarding this issue, we might see that their face was clueless and finally we leave them speechless. Deep in their heart, he really loves you but fail to express it. This normally happens in our daily lives.

I may not have a solution for this crisis. However, I have finally come to my senses.

Dear girlfriends, first and foremost, take control of your relationship. Always voice out what you have to say and never hide your feelings. Be strong and bold. I bet some of you girls never tried this,

“You ni asyik lepak dengan member you je… kita dah lama tak tengok wayang. Jom la.”

Trust me! It really worked. Always tolerate with him. Tolerance will balance a relationship so that both parties could enjoy the best of both worlds.

Next, let him be what he wants to be. Don’t be a barrier and a burden to him. The existence of us in his life is to ease him, not to damage him.

Do you prefer your boyfriend say this-?

“weh, aku takleh join korang ah malam ni, awek aku tak bagi..”

“eh, sori ahh. Aku takleh lepak malam ni, awek aku nanti tak kasi..”

~~Eh, hello. Ini namanya control freak, bukan girlfriend yang memahami. Nak kene label camtu ke? Tanak kan? Tanak kan?~~

Let’s flip the coin and exchange places. How would you feel if you want to spend time with your girlfriends watching movies and go shopping, or maybe even have a lunch date with your friends – then your boyfriend interfere and won’t let you go out and have fun? How does that feel? Felt controlled? Yes.

In a way or another, give him a chance to be a man by allowing him to expand his horizon with his male pals. Each and every guy on this planet only wants two things from his girlfriend; the ones who loved them, and the ones who can understand them. Be both, then your boyfriend will never ever let you go. These positive traits are the secret ingredients for a long lasting relationship (besides trust, tolerance and casual sex – that’s what my friend who sat beside me claimed)

Therefore, as we hit the bottom line, I would like to remind myself that life is an ice-cream. Let’s enjoy it before it melts. Being angry and temper all the time with my boyfriend makes me an uptight person. What the hell, I might get wrinkles at a very young age and I merely don’t want this to happen. One thing I always dreamt of is to be fun and have a bubbly relationship. With the love from God, as the days passed by, my boyfriend and I successfully sort things out and from time to time, we do fight and argue. We often agree to disagree and this is how we strengthen our bond. As we discover another part of ourselves, we finally came to our senses that we love each other. We’re humans, and we’re not perfect. Today we are falling in love, and the next day we are falling apart. C'mon, love is amazing! Don't you think so?

FOOTNOTE :

I’m not a love expertise or an experienced lover. Not to mention, I’m also not a love counselor. After almost 19 years of living, having 7 exes & unsuccessful relationship in my life encourage me to be a better girlfriend in future and improvise myself to be the best girlfriend ever. As long as I live, I would really love to share my thoughts with those readers who faced the same problem and boyfriend crisis with me J

My Sweet Escape!

2011-07-22T11:49:00.000-07:00

Dear World,

I guess it is a part of growing up; to sleep all day, and freak out all night. It is also a part of being a normal teenager to experience another side of the world that might drift us from the right path which is being rebellious, and breaking the rules. Those glorious days are officially one of my everlasting memory! Thank God, I had escape myself from the LIFE that I used to live and addict with since 2007, if I am not mistaken. (Oh boy, I am not a drug addict or a smoker if that is what you think) It is the life that leads me to another world of gaga and madness. The life that was full with neon lights and moshing as the daylight dies. The life that I had never regret of living it and roll with it. The life that taught me about trust, faith, family, and repent.

Alhamdulillah, I've been wearing the hijab for almost a few months now. I'm sure I'd be lost without His guidance and seriously, I'm starting to enjoy the fact that I am a full-time scraflets :')

Well, it is an honour for me when one of my friends wanted me to share my experience as a "late-bloomer" of wearing the hijab and share with my loyal readers about all the obstacles that I've been through.

First and foremost, I would like to thank everyone who had been supporting me since day one!

I have got to admit, it was hard for me at first to adapt myself with the fact that I am now 'bertudung'. I can't wear short pants, skirts, short sleeves, and baby tees in public like I used to. At first, I was uncomfortable and I felt terrible & annoyed with that 'thing' on my head for almost a day - EVERY DAY! Oh dear, did anyone had ever told you that Malaysia is sooooo hot? =___=" Sometimes I felt like ripping my shirt off and walk naked across the streets! However, with the love from God, I am now successfully a full-time scarflets! :')

One of the biggest obstacles that I've been through was my friends. MY EVIL FRIENDS. Those little evil brats who never quits to drag me down. They ambushed me with tons of middle fingered statements and horrible questions!

"alah, kau bertudung pun, dosa kau pun aku rasa lebih kurang aku je weh!"

"ini kau mengigau apa nih tetiba pakai selimut atas kepala nih?"

"adehhh, kau bukan nya baik sangat pun... tak payah lah weh, buat panas kau je."

worse,

"oih! ustazah datang! ke tepi, ke tepi, bagi duduk wehhh! cepat cepat, nanti dia bagi tazkirah kang!"

I know, :'(

Well, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't offended. Nevertheless, I pray to God and seek for forgiveness. I build myself everyday to be better.

I swear to God that my intention of wearing the hijab - not to attract anyone's attention or create another controversial look or following the Hana Tajima & Yuna's fashion trend, or whatever related to those kind of ridiculous reasons! That is clearly absurd! I'm wearing it because I want to improve myself to be a better Muslim.

Although I am now bertudung, it doesn't mean that I can't freak out with my friends & hangout with them or going to movies. It extremely upsets me when my friends isolated me every time we hang out. Their childish behaviour annoys me! They shut me up every time I wanted to talk, and they ignored me when I entered their conversation. At first, I was angry. I was furious! They treated me like I just did the worse crime on earth! I mustered all my courage and strength, and figure out a solution. And I think...

They are my friends, and they have no right to treat me like shit.

Therefore, without any doubt, I leave the group. I leave them for real.

If they are my friends, they would have support me.

If they are my friends, they would have respect me.

If they are my friends, they would have stand up for me,

because that's what friends are for.

I know, somewhere out there in this world, there are many human beings on this planet that will always accept us for who we are and who are we. I believe that these people, will always have faith in us and support us. Of course, we must remember ; stick to ourselves and don't let anyone drag us down.

Back to the main topic of wearing the hijab -I have no idea how fashionable the shawls and scarfs nowadays. They are superbly colourful and stylish! Believe it or not, I am starting to enjoy the twist and turn of the fashionable shawls :-) I wore different style to class everyday and I'm happy with it. I've been experimenting the scarfs from my friends and the internet. It was worth it.

Dear readers,

my points is that, be faithful to yourself. One vital thing I have successfully learn from my experience is that, well, do I really need to type it out? :-)

p/s;

I swear to God I don't have any intention to brag or to offend anyone in this post. All I wanted to do is to share my experience.

It's okay girls, just be yourself and always trust yourself :-) remember, there will always a room for improvement.

Footnote;

Although I have "selimut" on my head, =____=" I guess that fact never changed the person inside of me. I am still me, the girl who enjoys hardcore music, being loud, talkative and laughing so hard until I burst into tears. Who I am and who I was. No one can ever change that. I am proud of myself and deep inside of me, I know I am not good enough. :-( Trust me, I'm trying to better every single day of my life.

"cause you're amazing, just the way you are..." - Bruno Mars

My Own Top 10 Inspirational Females :-)

2011-07-20T11:35:00.000-07:00

The source of inspiration comes in many ways and various means. Books, lyrics, novels, quotes from movies, and even people! No, I don't need to hold a box of tissue and sat in front of the television waiting for Oprah to calm me down and listen to all the amazing inspiring stories to build me up. Currently I am now surrounded by loads of amazing people who never stop motivating me to be better and improve myself. Its not that I don't believe in myself or lack of confidence to put a little faith in myself. Sometimes we do need someone to look up to. Someone who can guide us Thus, I've listed out 10 females that successfully influenced me as long as I live since I was a kid. Okay now readers, here goes my top 10! :-)

10. KATY PERRY

Please, don't puzzle yourself. Let me introduce you, the one and only, Katy Perry. She was born in the name of Katheryn Elizabeth Hudson on October 25th, year 1984 - is an American singer-songwriter and actress. In a way or another, her songs merely makes me jump up and down and sing along. Besides that, her style is always one of a kind and down to earth. Look! She is totally bubbly, cute, adorable and undeniably - HOT! She has an amazing personality which she always stands up for herself. What I like her the most besides her music is that - she sticks to herself no matter what. For instance, her first pop hit sensation "I Kissed A Girl". In my opinion, it is a very mature and honest song that she wrote. She spills out the truth in a very unique way. Some might said that she is terrible by producing those lesbiany songs - but look at her now. She never afraid of the world. She speaks whats right for her and stands up for her! Two thumbs up KATY PERRY! or shall I say, Mrs. Brand? :-)

How does she inspires me?

By showing my true colors to the world and let the world see what am I made of

9. SHEILA MINHAJ

I know, her name sounds like the famous rapper Nicki Minaj - but noooo... I'm talking about Sheila Minhaj from TTDI, Selangor. She is my roommate. One of the most incredible spectacular person I've never met. She is one hardworking girl who never stops quitting. In my very own eyes, she seems perfect. :-) Everybody likes her. She is funny, talented, modest, lovable, and of course - extremely brilliant! 3.9 CGPA for 2 semesters in a row! AWESOME! How cool is that? However, I swear to God - I witnessed that she works hard for it. She sets her goals and go for it! Well, she is my classmate, and also my roommate. We've been together since orientation day until now. She took care of me when I am sick, and also when I'm drowning with tears. She crack the whole room up with her interesting stories and jokes. Frankly, I envied her in many sorts of ways. I wish I can be someone like her. Push away all the trivial matters and prioritize my life. I mean, c'mon! You guys should see her study table - it is soooo clean and super duper neat! Unlike mine, it is full with stuffs and sometimes messy and "sempit" and pinky-ish, and err.... okay. next!

How does she inspires me?

She makes me believe that anything is impossible in this world unless you work hard for it!

8. SHARPAY EVANS

Okay fine. I know here real name is Ashley Tisdale, but no! The lucky female who gets into my fabulous list is Sharpay Evans. A character from the top of the bop movie Disney's High School Musical. Yes, the movie who force you to sing every now and then. I love Sharpay! Sharpay Evans is one of the best characters in the series and serves the purpose of antagonist. Sharpay and her lovely but very annoying twin brother Ryan are the co-presidents of the East High Drama Club. Sharpay is first shown to be a self-centered drama queen who loves to be, and often is, in the spotlight. Well, I never thought I would say this but what's wrong being in the spotlight? Or shall I say, swimming in glitters? Isn't it fun? All eyes on you, and you're being the talk of the town? Oh, that's not my point. My point is that - the way she struggles to get to the top. Its merely amazing! I mean it. She fights for it, and never gets tired of losing (seriously, from the first movie till the end, she never quits!) Somehow, when some part of her busy fighting for herself, another part of her screamed "FASHION IS PASSION!" I mean look at her! Just look at her! NON-STOP FABULOUS!! Her pinky-ness never stop her and she is not afraid that people around her would underestimate her power and take her for granted. She struts out in pink and rule her world. Hey Sharpay, I wish you were real! :-(

How does she inspires me?

Forget about what people might say about me and take control of my life. Too pinky? So what? :-)

7. VICTORIA BECKHAMS / POSH SPICE

I spent my childhood years with my family in Scotland, United Kingdom and SPICE GIRLS are phenomenal! Their posters were every wear. As far as I can remember, it was in the year of 1998. This Brit-pop-girly-group are sensational. Their songs are over the place, on the bus, the row of shops, the supermarket, and even at school! Everyone was possessed by their songs and I didn't get left behind. Yes, I was small and naive but there is something about their song that jiggles my whole body. Of course, my favorite was the Posh Spice. Everyone thought I liked the Baby Spices but clearly - they were wrong. I think Posh was extremely hot and eye-catching! My dad used to brought us the whole family and enjoy the Spice World Movie in the cinemas. It was outrages. I was excited and ecstatic! Vicky, - she is poise, beautiful, and yeah - HOT! When I was a kid, I always looked into a mirror, stared into my eyes and convince myself that when I grow up, I will be Posh Spice - always in black, sleek, sexy, and confidence. Of course, here I am now. Just like Posh Spice (except for the body figure I supposed) Honestly, when they were a group, I think that Posh was kinda a bit 'left-behind'. Unlike Ginger Spice, Baby Spice and Sporty Spice, they were outstanding. Posh Spice was always covered by their shadows. Nevertheless, look at her now! When the group falls apart, this Posh turns to be a Bechkam material :-) Viva Forever Posh Spice!

How does she inspires me?

No matter how people keep you in the dark, you will always have a chance to shine!

6. ITA SALFARINA

Well well well, she was my BEL (Basic English Learning) Lecturer when I was in Part 1 Diploma in QS. By looking at this photo above, I know some of you might confused to identify which one is her. She is in the middle of the picture, with a petite figure, and a cute smile. Yeah! That's the one! :-) The one and only lecturer who I can laugh with and share my worries with. When I was in part 2, I entered a Public Speaking competition and she was my cotton candy, my lollipop, and my chocolate bar! (what I'm trying to say is that, she knew how to comfort me and she knew my weaknesses) A day before my Inter-Varsity Public Speaking competition, I went to her room and seek for some advice, and of course, she was always there to help me. She texted me just to check up on me, and she was right beside me when I was in boiling seat waiting for my turn. Turns out to be, I got the 4th place during the Inter-Varsity. I was upset and devastated. I burst into tears for the whole night and hit the sack early. On that same particular night, she texted me again just to see how was I doing. She gave me this long text by saying that, there must be a reason why I didn't win, and God may didn't give me a "winning" in the form of something else - she gave me an example of "Ridhwan". I was laughing hysterically when I read her text. I know she said that just to make me feel better but somehow - a few weeks after that, Ridhwan is officially my boyfriend (until now!) :-)

How does she inspires me?

Be grateful with what I have & always remember to believe in myself. Everything happens for a reason & good things comes in many ways!

5. INTAN LIYANA

She is my bestfriend and my total ultimate girlfriend! We met in the year of 2005 and became close 'till now! Thank God, our friendship remains strong and I hope the bond never breaks! The daughter of Mohd. Fadzil is superbly incredible! She is kind, generous, smart and yeah, lovable! During high school, she was this magnificent girl who everyone in the school wants to be friends with. We hang out every now and then and I swear to God that I'm very lucky to have a bestfriend like her. She understands me very well she knows how I fly and struggle with my life. We cared about each other and she is the only person that I can open up to. We shared secrets and stories. She always give me a hug when I needed one and she is irreplaceable! Honestly when I'm with her, I felt like jumping in the clouds with unicorns and rainbow. She never gave up on me, and she always supports me. Friendship is one of the most beautiful relations of all. Without any fuss, confusion, tangles and commitment life becomes a cake-walk if you have a hand of a friend to hold on. It is a divine blessing of God. Don't you agree? Somehow, I just can't believe what will happen to me next if she is not around. Yes, we might be miles apart now, but she is close at heart. Always! :-)

How does she inspires me?

She inspires me to appreciate the ones I love before its too late!

I love you girlfriend! hihi :3

4. BARBIE

Okay fine. Barbie is not a human being but somehow I consider her as a FEMALE. :-) LOOK AT HER, SHE IS FLAWLESS! Oh damn it. She inspires me nothing actually - but I really like her tough. I've been obsessing with Barbie dolls since I was a little girl. My mum bought nothing but Barbie dolls and Barbie cards for me when I was a kid. I grew up together with Barbie. I might have grown bigger and wiser but all of my Barbie collections still remains the same. I don't know why, but my there is something about this doll that I really adore about it. Is it because of the blond golden hair? Or perhaps her skinny body A-list model figure? ~~Yes!~~ Oh I don't know. However, I LOVE BARBIE. My brother even sponsor a Barbie birthday cake for my Sweet Sixteen Birthday Party. It was amazingly huge and magnificent!

How does she inspires me?

~~she inspires me to lose the excessive weight!~~

No, she inspired me to believe that GIRL POWER! :-)

3. KAMALITA OMAR

Proudly presents, my Aunty Nab. My mother's eldest sister. By blood, I am her niece! :-)

Never fails in giving advice and always have her own way to succeed. By comparison, my elder sister is quite close to her. However, her positive traits is enough to influence me to get her in to this list! :-) I wanna be someone like her when I grow old. A wise, religious, poise, motherly, highly-educated, and respectful lady. When my parents went to perform their Haji in the land of Holy - Mecca, she successfully took care of me and my siblings together with her 5 grandchildren! She cooked for us, take care of our house, and trust me, her cooking was superbly amazing! Just like my mum, they both share the awesome talent : cooking! She cooked the best spaghetti ever! Plus, you should try her homemade cookies! OMG, jaw-dropping I must tell you. She baked a whole set for her youngest daughter's engagement reception. Everyone enjoys it. My aunt is a responsible sister to the whole family. I adore the way she treats the whole family and especially her grandchildren, and how she cares about everyone in the family.

How does she inspires me?

to be a great cook? no. but to polish myself to be someone like her when I grow old.

a mature adult, not a dramatic fussy old lady. ergh.

2. NABILA NUR

The person I adore the most! My one and only sister. She is my diary and my everything. I whine almost about everything to her. A successful lawyer and a Masters graduate at a very young age! A bubbly, crazy and yet matured sister. Having a sister like her is something that a normal girl would dream of. The best part of having her as your sister ; she will sacrifice almost everything that she had in order for her siblings to be happy. Based on my own calculation and measurement, almost 70% of her words that spits out from her mouth which comes from her brain – is positively true. Sometimes it slammed right into my face every time she ambushes me with her mortifying words. She can speak and roar and the same time. I just don’t know how on earth she did it but she just did it. The best part of her as my sister, she really understands me well. She went through my ups & downs and stick with me no matter what. Well, we don’t have much in common but we always knows what’s best for each other. One of the reasons why I updated my posts is because of her. She believes in me. She puts her faith in me and keeps believing that each and every word I wrote is priceless. I love you sis. Always.

How does she inspires me?

FAMILY COMES FIRST, :-)

big sacrifices comes with great success!

thanks for everything kak!

1. LIZA OMAR

MY SUPER MOTHER. If Wonder Woman have super powers in order to save the world, my mum only needs love, courage, and sacrifice to save me. Mother's knows best. I completely agree. My mother understands me without knowing why. She knows whenever I woke up wrong side of the bed and how terrible I would be if I'd lost her. Her endless support and wisdom words are my source of happiness! At times, she might be fierce and uptight. She has her own means and method of treating her children. In the end of the day, she is a loving, caring, and angelic mother. She always told me and reminds me that God must comes first and never take for granted when it comes to prayers and Islam. She drag me to the right path with maximum love and she always wanted the best for me and her children. She'll stay up all night to take care of me when I am sick, she'll came up with any solutions just to solve my problems, she'll lend me an ear whenever I'm drowning with my dramatic life, and she knows what do to and what to say when I am down. Hanging out with her is the best part of the day. No matter if its just gossiping at the corner in my bedroom at home or even going out shopping and with her. Wanna talk about style? She knows everything! What to where, which one to ditch, she is like a walking encyclopedia. Every time I stumbled down puzzled, she will always be there and help me to stand up. My mother is a well experienced teacher. Of course, without her guidance, I would be lost by now. I love you Mummy! Forever and Infinity!

How does she inspires me?

we are nothing without God, and always praise to Allah for everything.

My mum inspires me to never give up and always believe in second chances!

There are no problems in this world; there are all challenges!

Thanks Mummy! :-)

Okay readers! There goes my list - for now.

Whoever reads this and owns a blog, I challenge you to create a post & list down all your top 10 Inspirational Females! (just like I did)

Share the world about your inspiration!

I would love to read it ;-)

GIRL POWER!

Where Will I be Next?

2011-07-12T10:05:00.000-07:00

In my own perspective - Love can be celebrated in many ways. Some might celebrate it annually, or some might celebrate it monthly. Worse, some couples decide that it is just a waste of time celebrating love. Thus, there are various types of celebrating love - some might score a goal with sex, or a hot date and maybe even a cute romantic day date.However, the best way to celebrate love, is by marriage. Tie the knot and kiss the bride! Somehow, a friend of mine once said that weddings are amazing, but marriage is hard. I don't know - maybe? Divorce rates are racing the matrimonial charts across continents. The reasons are many but resolutions taken are none. I guess the perfect ingredient for a happy and healthy relationship is trust and commitment.

The question is, where will I be next?

Several of my cousins are now getting married and my sister is next in-line. The whole family is now ecstatic by the wedding fever and I'm still wondering where will I be next? Am I going to be a housewife and marry to a billionaire? Or maybe, I'd stuck being a loner, a single lady, a workaholic, and never get married? What if the cupid lost his arrows and my love life keeps falling apart? Am I going to die young? Crap. I can't paint the big picture and I wish I can predict my future - I guess it's easier that way isn't? My cousin is now successfully married to a Kelantanese ~~yeah, me too! me too! lek, lek...gewe aku pom ore Kota Bharu jugop! hehehe :3 syg dy! gilo deh! huisyh! heeee! *okay, bab ni serious aku rasa ramai family aku tatau nihh! haha! shhhhhh~~ sumpah omg aku merepek meraban! takpe, practice lagi pasni. and I wish both of them all the best :-)

Well, okay okay. I might not be able to answer my question on "where will I be next?" but I do have an alternative solution for that question. I have invented a back up plan for my life and I am now successfully have made up my mind. Here is a little secret. I am a very optimistic person. I am not a control freak but I'm well organized. I plan almost everything. I plan on what to eat for lunch although I just woke up from bed, I plan what to wear to class for the following day, I plan on which day should I check my Facebook and I even plan for my dates! OMG, I wish I can google my future now, print the page, and paste it on my forehead. Some might came up with a conclusion that I am a perfectionist. Seriously speaking - I doubt it. I make mistakes all the time. Second little secret ; I worry too much.

Once, I cried hysterically when I found out that my favourite flip-flops were gone. Gone as in missing. I cursed and spit out all the horrifying words. With the love from God, it turns out that my roommate wore it to toilet and had a massive "blow-out" which took like 30mins. I know, what the hell right? So back to the question - In conjunction with the wedding fever and my future, I had finally relate it together and came up with a plan. *and I hope my dearest boyfriend reads this! :-) ~~awak! cepat tengok! cepaaaaaat heee!~~

1. Happy Couple :-) met in July 2010, Diploma in QS from Faculty of Architecture, Planning & Surveying of UiTM Perak

2. We graduated, InsyaAllah...

3. OMG I can hear the wedding bells! ~~excited sangat sampai KENDURI kasi BESAR PUNYA! haha!~~

4. Happy Family in progress - starts with a baby girl, auuuwwww :3 ~~cop! if its a girl, I want it to be Laila :-) comel tak? comel tak?~~

5. And my Laila grows up and we're going on our annual vacation overseas. ~~awak, kita nak pergi Las Vegas boleh tak syg? haha!~~

6. My Laila went to college, oh damn. She is all grown up~ TC baby girl, :') mummy loves you!

7. With God's blessings, we stay together, always and forever :') I wanna grow old with you!

Oh yeah, I know. Everyone wants this right? Be together and stay forever? Am I right? Yes. Thus, this is my answer to my question. :-) A Quantity-Surveyor couple in progress and a long-lasting relationship in the making! To those who can't figure out what I'm trying to say, you might be not mature enough or most probably still underage. Therefore, please pick your nose and jump out the window at the same time. My illustration answer is only required to those who really are in the same boat as mine. If you still don't get what I'm saying, I think you might consider yourself as minor age category. Thank You.

Okay, let's talk now people.

WEDDINGS.

I love weddings. Yes, I do mean by the free food but no. I ain't going to emphasize on that. Let me cut the cake for you. It's about commitment. Needless to say, there are so many things that need to be prepared and planned for having the most memorable wedding celebration. Choosing the right wedding decorations can easily make a very simple wedding venue a sensational one.

The wedding ceremony and the celebrations that follow it will be mark as the beginning of the journey of a couple. With that said, everything must be near perfect to be sure that every person taking part in it will always cherish this day. From the simple choice of what place card holders to use to the wedding favors, the couple should plan everything hand in hand.

Wedding decorations, themes and favors are what can make a wedding celebration a fantastic one. See here what the couple decide to make great choices which are from the simple place card holders to the exquisite and unique candle wedding favors.

As a result, with a mixture of teamwork, collaboration, tolerance, and not to mention love, a dream wedding is produced. :-) I envy these two love doves who successfully tie their knot on the 2nd of July. I was there and I witnessed almost everything. The whole family helped them to manage and arrange the wedding ceremony. It might not be a blast like the Kate & William's royal ceremony - but it is enough to satisfy everyone around us and it was memorable. A permanent event. :-)

To dearest cousin Esma Nawal, congratulations & for Zulkawamal, welcome to the family.

May God bless both of you with endless love.

well again, congratulations to the both of you :-)

"manusia hanya merancang, Allah s.w.t menentukan segala nya"

where will I be next?

answer :

only God knows.

The Surprise Party :-)

2011-06-13T19:52:00.000-07:00

proudly presenting, the birthday boys :-)

After almost 19 years of living, I think I've narrowed down my thoughts and came into a conclusion. I'm not good at celebrating birthdays or even delivering birthday wishes :-( especially when it comes to boyfriend-lovey-dovey's birthday. I still remembered a few years ago, I gave a handmade card and a Giordano T-shirt to my boyfriend and he told me the card was useful - as in, he used it to wrap his chewing gum. =___=" Am I that bad? Or even worse? Hmmm.. A big gigantic sorry to all my exes - I know, I suck =.='

However, this year, I vow to be a better girlfriend! I decided to throw a surprise party for him :D

I bought for him a basic Topman Sweater and a laptop backpack. He always wanted and admiring of having a Topman sweater and he really needs a new bag! *Yes, he needs one! I mean it, HE NEEDS ONE! T_T

So yeah, I joined forces with Una, who happens to be Fariz's darling girlfriend, to plan this mini surprise party. However, we decided to throw the surprise party for all the June Babies instead of our boyfriends. Ridhwan, Nuaiman, Fariz, and Ashrie :-)

Happy Birthday Guys!

Like I've mentioned earlier, I'm not good at delivering birthday wishes. Nothing I can think of except - May Allah s.w.t will shower you with more health, wealth, and endless guidance. *told ya! I'm lame =___="

All in all, it doesn't matter how we celebrate the day of our birth, we must always remember that each day that we're livin' in, is a gift from God :-)

Money CAN Buy Happiness - Dare to Disagree?

2011-05-28T03:47:00.000-07:00

There comes a time in our life when we start to agree with the old saying that “money can’t buy happiness”.
Well, some of us, the more cynical or maybe the “realists”, as we like to call ourselves, will say that maybe “indeed, money cannot buy happiness in its pure form, but it sure can buy loads of things that will make one happy”.

I don't mean to sound callous and imply that people can be bought. We don't need to look at it as money buying happiness and love. We just need to think of it as money is the means by which we acquire the things in life that makes us happy. I don't think anyone with a dime or two would argue with that. We humans are programmed to hunt, eat and breed. This is the very thing in life that makes us happy. We can do these things so much easier in this day and time with cash in the bank. We have fulfilled two of our programming with money being the central force in getting us what we need. Now on to the breeding part. You have attracted that new mate with money and fed them and now you say the breeding part is free. No way, new mate just isn't in the mood to make babies unless you can prove you are a good provider and can support that brood. You better have a good job or some inheritance that signals, guess what - money in the bank, "cha ching." Now we are happy. We have come full circle and gotten all we want and need out of life.

Fair enough. Whatever. I guess the topic of this post is about MONEY $$$

Let's take a look on the other side.

Money can buy you friendships and lovers, but money can never buy you peace of mind and love. These are the things that are constant and true, and once all of your money has gone, where are your friends then? Who is there to pick up the pieces? No one. Money can buy you happiness and love... but both are based on a false sense of security. True love and happiness comes from deep within the heart of not just yourself, but of those around you who would have been with you from the very beginning when you had nothing. Money can never buy you true love and happiness because those things are within the human heart and mind. Money glosses over those things and produces short bursts of happiness, and then you are down again. Or it may produce a false sense of love, yet when your money is gone, so too is the person who confessed to loving you.

Money tends to do this to people, and in many cases money is like an mirage, promising all kinds of things, and then when you have them, you suddenly find that you are not happy at all. There is no contentment there, and loneliness sets in, along with depression. which makes you meaner, and snappy, which then means you are going round in circles, trying to find happiness.

Fine, I have made up my mind. My conclusion is :-

BASED ON THIS PROFIT-FOCUSED WORLD THAT WE ARE LIVING IN RIGHT NOW, MONEY DOES NOT BUY HAPPINESS, BUT MONEY IS NOW CRUCIAL &IMPORTANT TO EACH HUMAN BEING ON THIS PLANET.

p/s: I hate to say this, but I always imagine how my life could be after I get married and I'm broke. I don't want my children to eat sand for breakfast and cucumber for dinner! :-( I want my kids to be happy and I want my family to be happy. The equation is simple. If they are happy, I am happy. Back to the statement, will my kids be happy if they have to eat sand & cucumber for a living?! NO.

For the ones who would be willing to agree that sometimes the best things in life are free, - let’s be good friends and let’s love with all our heart, and just to paraphrase a song I like - “I’ve gotta feeling, that ~~tonight’s~~ this life is gonna be a good ~~night~~”.

C'mon people, this is MY POINT OF VIEW. Chill~ :-)

You blog, I blog, WE BLOG

2011-05-22T09:32:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, someone asked me, why do I blog? Well, my answer might be dramatic but my point is simple. I blog because I want to. Blogging is another way how I talk to the world. How I see things from my angle, perspective, and understanding. I love to put myself at the corner of the Earth and see all the real life actions pass right in front of me from my own view. I'll witness each and every step how human respond to their own lives and how they fight for their future. Sometimes I conclude things differently. This is only because I enjoy relating my personal matters with the conclusion that I've analysed. Thus, I will find it interesting when I narrow down all the possibilities of life, combined with my experience & personal issues. The outcome may not be big and great - but it is enough to satisfy me, myself, and I.

Why do I blog? Answers that you might here from other bloggers are - how they share their real life experiences and how they express their feelings through words. Well, I do have one common thing with them. Sharing. Just like them, I do share with the world about my experiences. Some people will learn from other people's experience, but some other people read just for the sake of updating other people's lives. Some blogs are just awesome. I love how they deliver their thoughts and how they crap about their lives. I never get bored reading it. They make it interesting with their super duper language and some of them inserted humors - which I love the most. I have to admit, I am not a funny person but I do love to laugh. I laugh a lot. :-)

However, some blogs are just crazily obsessed with decorations. The words? Absurd! Crap is better than bullshits. So basically they bullshit almost everything. OMG, some bloggers enjoy blogging about what they eat in the morning, what they had for lunch, and kept babbling why they can't sleep at night and ended up facebooking - all over and over again. Therefore, it makes their blog redundant. They write the same thing all over again. I believe they do have the idea of writing, and I'm impressed. It's just that - it's boring. I swear to god I don't enjoy reading blogs with the same story but different subject. It's annoying! Worse, the emotional blogs. Seriously I don't want to crap about that one.

Either way, here is my question
Can we make a living from blogging?

Whatever it is, I have reached to my own conclusion of this ugly post. I'm quite amazed that tons of Malaysians are now blogging. I'm proud of it, I really am. Thus, keep writing people! Cause I never stop reading :-)

Nothing but Ourselves

2011-05-18T01:19:00.000-07:00

Some might label me as a hypocrite. Some label me as a pervert. Worse, some already labelled me as a dependent childish baby. I don't mind. This is life as we know it. We never get to satisfy other people's wants and needs. I know who I am and what I am made of. I always remind myself that "I am who I am, and your approval is neither desired nor required". Once, I tried to change myself just to fit in and to impress people. However, it didn't work out and turned out to be something I had never expected. Therefore, since that particular moment, I swore to myself; be myself, only me, always me, and forever me.

Put it this way, the definition of being a normal human is subjective. You don't have to agree about what people might say about you. The Earth is the stage. The humans are the actors & actresses. The life, is a drama. However, I still believe that I'm an actress - but without the script :-)

The script is all about how you handle yourself, and plan for what happens next. Based on the film industry, the person who create the script is the director - and not the actress. Thus, I prefer NOT to have a script and roll the dice. I decide to gamble with my own future. Well this doesn't mean that I don't have goals to score or dreams to achieve. I do - but the truth that lays underneath my statement is that : NO ONE CAN EVER CONTROL MY LIFE.

As an illustration, people only see what the saw. Physical doesn't mean anything. It portrays nothing but a show. It's all about presenting. How you present yourself to your friends, family, and the whole citizen of the earth.

For instance, well yes, I have a baby face, and a squeaky voice. Childish, as what my friends would say. "Grow up Naura!" they shouted. People will always relate from what they saw to what they experienced and what they speak - as an output. My friends may think that they know me very well. So well that they can even judge me. ~~Don't judge a book by its cover~~ Don't judge a person by its look, I would say.

Some trivia/facts that people and my friends might don't know about me :-
1. I can be a little sensitive when it comes to feelings.
2. I can be very bold, strong, and determined, when it comes to competition and winning.
3. I'll get pretty emotional when it comes to relationships & love.
4. I'm not quite a casual person (if you know what I mean)
5. I hate it when I'm alone.
6. Nothing can bring me down except for jealousy =_="
7. I can ~~crap, babble, bullshits~~ talk all day long and I never get bored of talking. Seriously, I don't :)
8. My dark past taught me how to appreciate life and live life to the max.
9. I don't really give a damn to those people who hate me.
10. I wish I can write I DON'T CARE on my forehead so that everyone can see what I'm serving the world.

So now everything depends on how we think and what we believe. Some people did label me as a cold hard plastic bitch once, and I give them a middle finger statement for that. Well guess what? Nobody knows that behind that hardcore solid girl, I was broken inside and drowning in my own tears. I felt hurt, wrecked and destroyed. In order to motivate myself, I pretend to be one of those rebellious person. I fight against the assaults but I wasn't strong enough.

The world teach us many things about life. How to respect people, and how we treat ourselves. Each people have their own perspective about life and respect. Each angle gives us different directions that will lead our brain to think. Think, not judge.

Stop hiding and never fear with what people might say about us. To make things easy, okay then. Fine. Just set your mind that those people out there never stop talking about you because you're damn famous and hell they are just being jealous! Too much? Well, that's why I'm a Drama Queen :-)

p/s : Always act like your wearing an invisible crown on your head and strut away your life! ♥

The Dirty Laundry

2011-03-26T22:03:00.000-07:00

An acquaintance of mine told me something that she was superbly proud of, which was something she didn't have. Her virginity. I stared into her eyeballs as I swallowed the truth. She laughed and smiled. Her laughter was different than the usual. An unidentified statement laying underneath her laughter. I frowned. Suddenly the space went silent. The silent which forced her to act beyond my expectations. She leaned her body towards mine as our eyes met. She grabbed my waist and hold it firmly. Her eyes were roaring with maximum lust and full power of passion and desire. I can hear herself breathing, as her fingers scrolled with excitement over my numb body. My body was out there performing and response to each & every move she invented. I can hear myself moaned as she nibbled my ear and let all the work done by the gesture of her tongue. I didn't move. I didn't move. I didn't move. Was I enjoying the moment? My mind went empty as she wagged her tongue, the slippery and the ticklish. Damn girl, you're amazing! I was screaming inside for more. I spread my legs willingly as she stripped down my white basic tee and "HOI MAKCIK, DAH NAK NAIK MATAHARI NIH, TANAK SUBUH KE MAKCIK?! BANGUN, BANGUN, BANGUN!!" what the-? -___-" right, thank you FRIEND. I leaned against my bedroom wall as my mind starts running with trillions of questions when I jumped out from bed. Oh God, what was that? I was completely shivering and shocked. I am not ready yet to be kissed or even touched. All in all, I strongly believe that I am not interested in girls - in the sexual way. I'm straight, completely straight and yes, I respect others.

Ceh, mimpi =___="

So yeah, okay. This is what I get for not performing my Isya' prayer before I went to bed. A nightmare. (or shall I say, a sexy nightmare?) Well either way, I've learned my lesson. I was so gloomy on the night before and extremely sleepy. Thus I ran to my bed and hit the sack. I skipped my Isya' prayer.

Ya Allah, forgive me for what I've sinned...

p/s : Always remember that Allah s.w.t will always comes first no matter what.

Fabulousity in PINK :-)

2011-03-17T04:23:00.001-07:00

OKAY FINE, I'VE BEEN OBSESSING WITH PINK COLOUR SINCE I'M IN MY MUMMY'S BELLY!
*mummy's belly? SAH KAU MELAMPAU LAH NAURA. (-__-")

Well, PINK is my addiction. Always and forever. I don't know why, but somehow the colour makes me feel confident, strong, and yet girlish & feminine at the same time. I still remember how I used to dress up from head to toe with pink school bag, pink files, pink socks, pink books, pink stationaries, with pink bottle, when I was in school. (okay fine, sampai sekarang kot. HAHA!) Yes, without any doubt, looking back on those dark moments, it hurts when people actually disgust me just because of my favourite colour. They treated me like I'm sort of like a Legally Blonde material :-(

Oh well, who cares. I love the way how I love myself so basically WHAT DO I CARE? :-) Okay peeps! Here is SOMETHING that I've been dreaming of.

MY DREAM HOUSE ♥
Barbie’s Malibu dream house is designed by Jonathan Adler in honor of blonde’s 50th birthday. The 3,500 square foot home features a really chic interior with such things as a chandelier made of Barbie hair, a sunburst mirror made from 65 Barbie dolls and a closet filled with thousands of shoes. The master bedroom, the closet and some other things are made in bright pink color that has always been great association to the “client”. An in-house museum features 25 vintage Barbie dolls on display. A pink Volkswagen New Beetle with a motorized pop-up vanity in the trunk is usually parked in the garage.

Obviously, we can conclude that this house is SUPER DUPER PARADISE :')
I WANT IT
I WANT IT
I WANT IT
I WANT IT
I WANT IT!!!

The Twisted Truth ; Everyone Has Secrets

2011-02-23T20:22:00.000-08:00

Hello, my name is Naura and one thing for sure I know about life is ; EVERYONE HAS SECRETS. Unfortunately, I believe in sharing. I share almost everything with my sister and my besties; from the twisted truth, the sacred secrets to dirty little lies and naughty burning fire of hell. Somehow I am now blessed to have friends and family who always have faith in me in every inch and every way. Thus, they kept pouring their little secrets and sharing it with me because they believe in me. By the force of nature, I’ll do my part as an understanding and a responsible human being by zipping my lips and swallow the truth.

“She told me that I told you that she told him that he told her that you told me that I told her that...”

To simplify the equation of life; without secrets, there won’t be any gossips. Of course, without gossips, there won’t be any spice in our daily lives.
Just to clear things out, I’m not the kind of girl who invites drama every day just to scoop the juicy gossips in everyday life to live, or love to create scenes just to be the talk of the town. I have to admit sometimes it pissed me off and it drives me hysterically crazy when I get sucked into a drama. At that moment, I’ll show the other side me, the true dark colours by releasing my rage & temper, and without any hesitation I’ll stuck up the middle finger up high – hell I don’t give a damn!
I smile and laugh a lot when I’m happy but I swear and curse a lot when I’m angry. I can be a very good friend, but I can be a pretty bad damn enemy.

Like other people, I don’t actually enjoy the moment when people start to twist the truth behind my back. The more twisted it gets, the more complicated my life will be and the more difficult for me to escape from the horrifying lies. People will talk. Hell they will keep on talking until we fall hard on the ground, panting and suffering. Not many of us realize that when we fall, it actually makes us stronger when we deal with the difficult situations and fight for the truth. I have to agree that shit does happen and when it happens, only God knows how it hurts.

I’m sick of pretending and I’m done spreading my fake smile to the world, and to the whole citizen of the earth.
It’s time to face the music that I’m not a saint or a nymph and the perfect time to come clean now. No more playing around the bushes.

I don’t have the ability to invent a time machine or turn back the clock and reverse the time. One thing I can sum up about life; IT GOES ON. Life doesn’t have an undo button or the reset button. Therefore I can’t run from my mistakes and pretend it never happens. There is always a price to pay. I never regret of anything I did because I’ve learnt my lessons. By learning my lessons, I vow to be a better person ever single day. I’m just a normal human being trying to make the best of my life. Just so you know, everyone has secrets. *wink! ;-)

The Princess of Talking :-)

2011-02-23T19:27:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah, I just won THE BEST SPEAKER OF UiTM PERAK 2011 :-)
I’m proudly representing the Faculty of Architecture, Planning and Surveying - also the Champion of Public Speaking Inter Faculty for the Prepared Speech category, and the Runner-up for Impromptu Speech.

yes I love to talk and I just can't help it :-)

With the love from God, I will be representing UiTM Perak for the Inter-Varsities Public Speaking Competition on the 8th of March 2011 at the Dewan Serba Guna of UiTM Perak with Dahlan Daim. (Hello Dahlan!) ;-)

meet Dahlan Daim, the champion of Impromptu Speech :-) Art & Design student ♥

KEY TO SUCCESS :
I only hold on to these three things when I was on stage. Firstly, CONFIDENCE. Secondly, ATTRACT THE AUDIENCE. Thirdly, IMPRESS THE JURY. Trust me, if you mustered these three elements, you’ll gained more than you expect.
My heart was blooming with joy when they announce that I was the Champion of Public Speaking for the Prepared Speech. Swear to God, I thought I was terrible during my impromptu speech. Clearly, my speech successfully impress the juries and I was the runner-up for the Impromptu Speech category. No words can be expressed when my name was announced as the Best Speaker of UiTM Perak 2011. I jumped with joy and I smiled all the way as I walked along the aisle. Alhamdulillah..

SECRET INGREDIENTS :
To impress the jury, try to attract the audience with sense of humour and illustrate the examples by sharing with them your personal thoughts about our daily lives. I talked to them, not at them. I’m glad everything turned out to be more than I expected. From what I’ve learnt, nothing can stop you if you have high-level of confidence. Once the confident feeling manipulates you, nothing will able to let you down. Thus, be strong, bold and confident.
Body language, and hand gesture. Not to mention, eye contact too. These three aspects are very crucial for public speaking. To score bonus points, don’t fool yourself, but do things that will make you stand in the spotlight among other contestants. For instance, I’m the only participant who actually has the guts to sing the Spongebob Squarepants song as an example. (Hello people, I have my point okay, it’s not that I’m making a fool of myself by stupidly singing that song. Absolutely NO!)

What I did was, stay casual and be myself. Don’t be serious, unless if you want the audience to sleep and snore while you’re giving your speech. Haha! Serious is boring and outdated. Just be bold, confident and casual – the complete package! The most important thing is, don’t be afraid to show the world that you are capable of doing anything. Don’t hide yourself with that awkward serious smile.

CREDITS TO ALIAH OTHMAN FOR THE PICTURES
p/s; I LOVE YOU MEGGY ♥

more pictures will be uploaded, I promise!

okay, before I end this post, I would like to thank to all of my friends and family who have been supporting from day 1. No words can be described how grateful I am having all of you as a part of of my life.
Zana, Pija, Sheila, Aliah, Amoi, Ridhwan, Firdaus, Ghazali, Idham, Nuaiman, Fahmy, Ashrie, Fariz.. I really appreciate your support and thank you for being there for me ♥

and also to my sister Nabila Nur (Hi Kak, I know you're reading this! Now get back to work! hihi) who always motivates me and go through with my ups and downs. My parents, who never stop believing me and I love you guys!

FOOTNOTE :
THIS IS SHARIFAH AMANI, A MALAYSIAN ACTRESS

AND NOW, THIS IS NAJWA BASIR, ONE OF THE PUBLIC SPEAKING CONTESTANT

Is is just me, or do you guys think both of them actually look alike? :-) I wish you guys can actually meet her in person. She is very pretty and adorable. I know, pictures have the ability to trick us but all of you have to trust me on this ; "MUKA DIORANG SERIOUS SAMA!!" hehe :-)

Hello Perfumes! Whats hot for 2011? :-)

2011-02-10T00:54:00.001-08:00

I'm always addicted to perfumes and pleasant smells. I love the moment when people actually told me I smell pretty good. :-) My roommates sometimes always feel annoyed every time I spray my Eau de Parfum before I leave the room and the fact that I left the whole room smells like spring :-) A perfume is a woman's signature and a true reflection of her personality, perfectly completing any outfit. Besides, a well-chosen perfume, worn with confidence can make us see the woman in a more interesting way.

I've been doing some research and perfume hunting online to replace my Davidoff Cool Water. Let's take a look what 2011 latest perfume collection offer us ♥

Everyone knows David and Victoria Beckham. Intimately Yours by David & Victoria Beckham is their new perfume. Intimately Yours Women is a sensual perfume, with exotic oriental flavors. Its top notes are bergamot, freesia and pear, while the middle notes are African orange flower, frangipani and lily, and base notes are vetyver, iris and sandalwood. Intimately Your Men has top notes of blood orange, amalfi lemon and green notes, middle notes are lavender, sage and basil, while base notes are vetyver, sandalwood and tonka bean. I guess this couple really know how to impress their fans :-)

I've always adore Marc Jacobs's perfume bottle since like forever, Daisy by Marc Jacobs I assume. As for 2011, the amazing, yet soft design of "Lola Velvet" by Marc Jacobs, with vibrant colors and floral topped bottle, makes you think to the warm, beautiful days of summer. A seductive and warm fragrance created in an extraordinary mixture of fruity top notes of Pink peppercorn, pear d'Anjou and Ruby Red Grapefruit, a heart made of fuchsia peony, rose and geranium, with a base of vanilla, creamy musk and tonka bean. A real femininity statement in a bottle!

Guess Seductive for Women, with its orris root essence, evokes the coquettish and stylish charm with a bold touch. Fruity notes of bergamot, black currants and pear perfectly meets the exotic notes of jasmine, African orange flower and Florentine Orris, everything on a base of vanilla, olibanum and cashmere wood. I think its quite simple yet sexy, but with Guess ; I think the simplicity successfully pleased everyone don't you think?

Yes! Chanel never let me down! :-) Chance Eau Tendre is a new perfume, the romantic and fruity-floral interpretation of the already famous Chance Eau from Chanel. Created by Jacques Polge, in-house perfumer at Chanel, Chance Eau Tendre is a special mingling of delicacy and radiance, of grapefruit and quince with green notes, Jasmine Absolute and White Musk. It is the perfect choice for women who want to play the innocent-seductive game, being both sweet and sensual.Can you just imagine the sweet sensation? Well I do. Honestly.

Radiance is a new perfume from the famous pop star Britney Spears, which will be available on the market in September 2010. Her ninth fragrance is a feminine blend of red berries, delicate flower petals and soft musk, packed in a bold and girly, light blue and pink bottle, decorated with fake rhinestones. The alluring aroma of the composition includes notes of berries, tuberose, jasmine, orange blossom, iris and musk. The fragrance was created under the patronage of the Elizabeth Arden brand. I love the fact that Britney now is trying so hard to impress us, and this time, she nailed it. I'm proud of you Britney! Keep it going!

♥It seems like the most famous and most women-would-die-for for this year's perfume is “Love, Chloé” is the new fragrance for women by Chloé, “a celebration of radiant, generous, spontaneous femininity”. With notes including orange blossom, pink pepper, iris absolute, lilac, hyacinth, wisteria blossom, heliotropine, powdery musks, talc and rice powder, “Love, Chloé” embodies light and sensual elements into a scent that softens the skin. The bottle has this classic design with a soft combination of pink and golden metallic tones and a chain tying the cap to the bottle. Hell, the bottle looked sophisticated! :-) More bonus points ; Supermodel Raquel Zimmermann is the face of the new perfume in an ad made by Roman Coppola. C'mon, let's spread some smell people!

Dates, Kiss & Tell ♥

2011-02-09T22:44:00.000-08:00

"He kissed me then he fled... But I never kiss and tell."

Basically, it means publicly retell of one's sexual exploits, often with the aim of revenge or monetary gain. People usually misinterpret this phrase due to the classy sound of this phrase. Kiss and tell is of course a euphemism - firstly, when stories of this sort arise we can take it for granted they will include details of more than just kissing. Also, if as is often the case now, they are printed in tabloid newspapers, sell would be a more appropriate word than tell. It might be thought to be a recent phenomenon, but it dates back to at least the early 18th century and appears in Gabriel Odinsells's comic play The Capricious Lovers in the year of 1726.

"Somehow, I am seeing someone right now, but yesterday I went on a date with his friend..."

Don't judge me, I'm just trying to live the life with my own way. I'm not a two-timer, or a cheater. Hell I don't simply spread the I-LOVE-YOU quote with all of the guys I've dated. I only say it when I truly mean it :-) Therefore I think it's okay to go on a million trillion billion dates until you met the person you really love. Well there is one little thing that really bugs me which I need to confess; as I grow older, I think I'm not quite a romantic person. I don't know how to behave when I'm on a date. I giggle a lot, I talk a lot, and I laugh most of the times. At some point I love to complain, like a bimbo. =.= Is that okay? 'cause I think its simply annoying. I'm sorry, I think I need to buy this as a guidance. I swear I really need this (at least that's what I thought) :

Oh what the heck, bullshit this dummy book! I'm only 19 and I'm not ready to fall in love again. In fact, I don't even understand what love is! The first thing you pour your love hard, then the next thing "oh, its over. he's not the one" what the hell is that? I thought love should be endless. I don't like being shackled by anyone. Thus, I'm starting to enjoy myself with the fact that I'm not tied or crumpled with any relationships. No strings attached. I'm still young and I have tons of things to explore. I love freedom. Its freedom people, freedom! :-)

And I want DEAN'S LIST as my boyfriend. I don't think it's not that impossible right? Yeap! 3 pointer used to be mine, but now I want DEAN'S LIST. Greedy me, so what? :-) Hey, DEAN'S LIST; wait up! YOU'RE MINE ♥

you may now KILL the bride ♥ and be the Queen :-)

2011-02-01T08:28:00.000-08:00

Okay, I have got to be straight this time ; is it so hard and very difficult to believe in yourself? I'm not writing about some fairytale bullshit on DARE TO DREAM issue or HOLD ON TO YOUR HEART crap. I just found out that some people (hell yeah, I mean my friends) doesn't seem to realize the fact that we are humans and we must have faith in ourselves! C'mon, didn't our parents told us since we were a kid that we must believe in what we are capable of?

Well, I’ve been pouring out all of my energy and creative thoughts on Cik Teh’s assignment for Building Services subject for the past weeks. I slept at 8am and woke up around noon for my evening classes starts at 2.15pm normally. Some days I just don't get to hit the sack due to packed schedule. I was cranky and moody on those gloomy day.
As the day goes by, I've been wondering and doing some thinking on the night I stayed up.

We are humans. Humans are capable of doing anything beyond our expectation as long as we are totally in it to win it!

C'mon, at least that's what I've learnt. I drank 1 cup of "kopi-pekat" and the next thing bamm! My eyes are open wide and I was being energetically hyperactive! Well, unlike the Americans, I don't need sex to feel alive and awake. I only need me, myself, and I and hell yeah, I know what I'm capable of.

Let's say, music is my passion. I don't conclude myself as a drummer now, but I can label myself as a drummer-in-progress :) I believe that someday I can share my talent with the rest of my friends and family. My band mate once told me that it is quite rare to have a female in a band as a drummer. Heck, it takes more than that to take me down! So yeah, I crumpled my guts and did some critical thinking. Haven't anyone of you heard the existence of MEG WHITE? ♥

The drummer from the famous bad since the 1990's THE WHITE STRIPES. Famously known with the track like Hello Operator, Dead Leaves and The Dirty Ground, Icky Thump, and also undeniably off the hook record Seven Nation Army.

Jack White, the vocalist and the guitarist spent much of the 1990s hopping from band to band. In 1997, Meg first tried playing drums. In Jack's words, "When she started to play drums with me, just on a lark, it felt liberating and refreshing. There was something in it that opened me up." The two then began calling themselves The White Stripes and soon played their first gig at the Gold Dollar in Detroit. In keeping live performances to three basic elements, Jack did the guitar and vocal work while she played drums.

I know, I've been adoring this ladybug for quite along time actually, of her simplicity lunatic skills. Mark my words peeps, she is freaking awesome! :)

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As long as I live and breathe, it was quite devastating when I observe that some bitches never realize how rude they treat other people without noticing, and never know how to quit from hating other human being with unreasonable excuse. In this case, well so much for the 'believe-in-yourself' terms, I think they over did that. Due to excess faith in themselves, they begin to bounce with proud and arrogance; they were strutting instead of walking. Manipulative and disgusting. They will never stop talking about other people and their tongues just won't stop wagging until they reach the acme of pure gossip & mocks plus the devilish satisfaction.

I've told my friend once, and I'm gonna write once again just to share this thought with the whole world. Embrace yourself ;

SAY ANYTHING WHAT YOU WANNA SAY ABOUT ME. BECAUSE I AM SOMEONE WHO YOU WILL NEVER BE.

Remember, nothing can let us down except for ourselves. In this issue, BOOST YOUR CONFIDENCE :)

Yes, I know that Katy Perry. Confidence. and hell I just love you ♥ haha!

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For most, shopping is a sport. For the rest, it is an addiction
One thing that I think I’m superbly good at is spending money. Okay, ‘spending money’ can also be defined as shopping or wasting your money on something unnecessary. Somehow, it is quite obvious that a shopaholic person is not a synonym to a parsimonious or a stingy person. Those thoughts actually popped up in my mind last week when I was scrolling my diary and I found a particular shopping receipt slipped one of the pages. The date still clearly stated and the bill was still neat and sharp. I smiled.

A few years ago when I was madly in love with this boy named X (oh please, as if I would actually want to state his REAL NAME is it? pfft-! you wish!), I still remembered how he used to complain and mumble along the aisle of a shopping mall on how I spend my money aggressively. Well, I have to agree with the fact that being materialistic is one of the main recipes of failure in life. It can actually portrays your real self and negative attitude. Somehow, I felt so small and weak every time he complained. I have to admit, its like he literally kills me by using his own harsh words and every time he destroys my moment of livin' in the good life. Such a buzz kill. =.=' I wish I could step up and dance.(what the hell?) No, I mean I wish I could stand up and tell him straight into his face that I am capable of doing anything in order of ruling my own life.

SO WHAT? LET'S SHOP! ♥

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YOU MAY NOW KILL THE BRIDE, AND BE THE QUEEN
my exact point is, if you are a bride, you must follow the point and tip of the groom. right? so kill the bride then! be the queen! then you get to create and follow by your own rules. chill, you still have your king although you invent your own terms, am I right? *wink!*

The Beauty of Waiting :-) & The Guilt of not being beside Her :-(

2011-01-21T22:18:00.000-08:00

Just to share the fact that you can actually categorize me as a stuck up bitch with lack of patience before this realization. I’m starting to love the fact that “it’s worth the wait”. I’ve learn that it’s better late than never. Patience is all what it takes to be a wise person as we grow older each day. My point is, for the past months and almost a year, I’ve been suffering from “maaf-handphone-saya-rosak” disease. So now, thanks to my sister she gave me this brand new phone to cure the disease! ;-)

THE HOT PINK NOKIA C3 ♥

*Alhamdulillah, sangat berbaloi penantian ku :-)*

Yeah, I know it’s not Blackberry or idk, what do you call that new thing? I-Phone 4 is it? Jyeah, I’m happy with this new pink cutie. YES, IT’S HOT HOT PINK! And I named it BARBIE :)

With build-in WiFi, I can surf everywhere. Yes, I have to admit, I do surf when I'm in my BEL260 class. By not using or damaging my brain, I'm able to surf for some stuff for my essay writing :)
Somehow, by using this phone, the horrible obsession of mine - "non-stop-texting" just won't go away it seems =.=' with the flexible smooth QWERTY keypad, I noticed I was easily socialize and get connected. What the hell, this is NOT a good news ~.~
Well, minus that part, I still, I will, and forever will LOVE this cutie hottie baby!

Bottom line, I LOVE YOU KAK! Thanks for the 'Barbie' and Happy 25th Birthday my dear! :-)

Unlike any other siblings, I thank God for having a sister like her. We may have uncommon and opposite interest, but those craps never stop us from being so damn close and madly & crazily together.

I love you kak, ♥ You're the best and no one can replace you. I know I am guilty and may get arrested for not being with you on your special day, but my heart and soul are always with you kak. We belong together and 'till death do us apart. :)

APPRECIATE THE ONES YOU LOVE WHILE THEY ARE STILL BREATHING, SHOW THEM YOU LOVE THEM. IT'S NEVER TOO LATE ♥

Ring the Wedding Bells please :-)

2010-12-25T00:08:00.000-08:00

I'm not a big fan of Prince William and Kate Middleton like my mom does. Somehow, I really love weddings. It's been a part of my whole life since I was a kid. I have always loved weddings. The gowns, decorations, the wedding cards, the door gifts & goodie bags, and for us as the Malays; the 'pelamin', omg. What the hell is PELAMIN in english? translator pleaseeee..Anyone? ANYONE?! =.=' OKAY FINE.

On the other hand, one of the best part of wedding events is the MEAL. :-)

2011 will be a very busy year for me and my whole big family. 3 of my cousins will spread their love in the air with their loved ones and ring their wedding bells this year. This will also includes Engagement Ceremony. To all of my cousins, Kak Ema, Kak Tika, & Abang Zafran, Congratulations!

*Trust me, marriage is also the perfect moment to expand the family horizon. I mean that is what I believe. :-) Don't you?

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Back to my main idea of this post.
Now that news of the engagement of Prince William and Kate Middleton has been unleashed for public consumption, let the delirious obsessing, the breathless speculating and the earnest navel-gazing begin. We know the handsome Prince William proposed using his mother's 18-carat sapphire-and-diamond engagement ring. Now we can focus on that other crucial wedding planning decision: What will the gown look like? And what might it mean?

the 3rd image : Nanette Lepore's design for Kate Middleton
the 4th image : from Valentino's for Kate Middleton
the last image : the amazing Largerfield's design for Kate Middleton

Believe it or not, there was and there will be a war for Kate Middleton's wedding dress among the designers.
To be frank, these sketches are AWESOME. Can't wait to see what she'll wear on that glorious day! ♥ AWESOME! Nobody knows what's on her mind now. She actually let the clock ticks slowly and let the whole nation living with a RIDDLE. It is a very mysterious way but somehow I think its extremely AWESOME!! Oh c'mon people, riddles are just necessary at some point of view. And riddles are just AWESOME! :-)

NOTE TO MYSELF :
Naura you are overreacting! Oh God, enough with the AWESOME already.... -____-' *sigh*

For the big day on Friday April 29th, 2011 it has to be a wedding dress fit for a queen – literally, as when Kate Middleton marries the second in line to the British throne, she becomes a future Queen of England. The wedding of Kate Middleton and Prince William is being hailed as the wedding of the decade, if not the century. The wedding dress, therefore will also go down in history. :-)

Oh God, you took Micheal Jackson away and now you give me Justin Bieber :)

2010-12-12T23:06:00.000-08:00

The title of this post clearly states that Justin Bieber is the only cure for my Bieber Fever. :) ♥

His voice really swept me off my feet, and his face was like OHMYGOD I'm speechless and please don't let me start with his hair, *drools~* ♥

Of course, it is undeniable that he is talented and the world's current obsession. Girls form all over the world can simply die for him and scream-till-nuts for him. And YES I WOULD CATCH A GRENADE FOR HIM, and throw my hand on a blade for him and apahal dah masuk lyric lagu Bruno Mars nih? =.='

So yeah, he can sing, he plays guitars, the piano and also the drums. Isn't that amazing? I mean, he is soooo young and now he is a money-maker. Wow, :') Haven't you watch the latest AMA Award Show? Do you realize how many awards he gained this year?! I mean, WOW. *Double WOW*

It is just awesome how Justin Drew Bieber (yes, that's his real name) can amaze the whole world. I was just surfing the internet today and look what I've found! A Justin-Bieber-Birthday-Theme-Party! ♥

Click here for more details,
http://www.thepartyanimal-blog.org/justin-bieber-birthday-party-theme/

How cool is that? Thank God I'm about to turn 19, so I don't need all those theme parties. All I need is an ultimate off-the-hook party baby! :') hahaha! *okay, big talk. enough already. =.=

So, some acquaintance actually told me that next year, yes 2011 - He'll be performing LIVE in Malaysia! What the hell-? I KNOW, I KNOW. I'm trying very hard to get the tickets now. :)

And to all Beliebers out there, keep on supporting this cute little angel ♥
And to all Bieber-Haters, WHATEVER. GET A LIFE.

I Think I'm in ♥

2010-11-22T01:48:00.000-08:00

Savannah Packard - Love Loving You

yeap, its the theme song from 'Giuliana & Bill' from E! Channel. I know, both of them are soooo in love, and shoot-! I just can't get this song out of my head. *I love the way you are, and what I'm not~* :) The lyrics are just incredible! How awesome this song can be if you are actually in love at this moment, auuuwww~ :')

The Drummer From The Darlinghurts :-)

2010-11-15T09:43:00.000-08:00

The Trilok Gurtu Artist Series Drumstick

I JUST BOUGHT IT :)
yeay!
HEHEEEE :D Trust Me, I don't mind spending extra cash for these fire hotness gorgeous baby pairs! Auuuwww :')

Designed by World Percussion Master Trilok Gurtu. Unique thumb groove at the fulcrum point, jazz dimensions and tip, and a double yellow DIP handle for exceptional control. This highly visible stick feels unlike any other. U.S. Select Hickory with a Walnut stain. I know! How awesome rightt?! Oh, I think I just sh*t myself. HAHA! wtf? -___-'

P/s; yeah, I may be a little bit amateur as a drummer, but THANK YOU GUYS FOR YOUR ENDLESS SUPPORT ; my Guru Acap :), Jaja, Apiz, Zahen, Braff, Dylan and Haikal :) *Zana & Aliah too sebab teman Naura beli. :D and my Kak Ila <3
Zildjian, MAY GOD BLESS YOU. Aminnn~ :)

shoes, heels, and more platforms! :-)

2010-09-02T11:56:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep. So what the hell? I say it's shopping time! ♥
By using Alia's ultimate broadband (cewah, ultimate tuuu..) :) I started to online shopping! okay, apa perkara pertama yang terpancul dalam fikiran saya sekarang untuk shopping? KASUT of course! MORE and MORE platforms and heels and boots and whoaa~ whouuu~ goshhhh~ *drooling* hehehe.
here, take a look! ♥

and oh, I'm ordering this pink heels for my cousin's wedding! or maybe for Perubahan Dinner, on the 10th of October. Auwww, aren't this pink heels adorable? ♥ Love it to death!

*haih, bila lah nak sampai agaknya... tak sabar nih! (ceh, padahal baru je order tadi)

We are living in a good life actually. All I do was sit down and relax, my fingers are moving, searching for the best footwear, then click on the chosen shoes, enter your parents credit card account number, *please call them first* and the next thing you know, Fed Ex appears in front of your doorstep, delivering the shoes!
LIFE IS EASY. right? ♥
THANK GOD for creating INTERNET, the world wide web! :')

and here are other smashing exotic shoes you can grab! :)

Here is something from YVES SAINT LAUREN <3

Yves Saint Laurent has created these luscious Pink Party Tribute Heels in an effort to help fight cancer in women.

The hot pink high heel sandals were designed exclusively for Pacific Palisades boutique Elyse Walker — in tribute to Walker’s longtime support of cancer research for women. These YSL shoes are on sale now at ElyseWalker.com for $995. A donation of $100 from each sale will be made to Cedars-Sinai Women’s Cancer Research Institute.

Oh well, that's it. :) Yes, I'm addicted with super high heels actually and nothing in this world can stop me from wearing these kind of shoes. I mean it, really. hehehe *giggles*
*kalau nak upload gambar kasut yang memang mengancam gila tuh, fuhh! sampai sahur tak habis wehh. ngeee. <3

You are not a FASHION DESIGNER, so get over it.

2010-09-02T10:31:00.000-07:00

Is it me, or I actually can see myself in another 10 years from now?

So, a few weeks ago before Ramadhan, I and a few of my friends were selected to visit the real construction site. As the bus were moving to the location, I was thinking, am I doing the right thing? All I wanted in this life - become a fashion designer.

And now here I am, wearing this white construction hat, and I’m about to see the real life as a Quantity Surveyor. I’ll be doing this calculating and counting (which specifically called “taking off”) for the rest of my life. Am I ready for this? Naura, are you ready? I said, ARE YOU READY?!

And my answer is: No? Yes? Eh... No? Yes? Er...? bullshit.

So I said to myself, “NAURA, let’s buckle up, and get ready for your ultimate ride of your life!”

Somehow, there is one single thing that I’m extremely sure. In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life; IT GOES ON.

As I arrived at the construction site, I took a deep breath and smell the construction world. Hell, I said “~~Bitch~~ Babe, here is it. THIS IS IT, your life. You were born to do this.”
So here I am, trying to nail myself to the wall and keep in mind that in future, I’LL BE A QUANTITY SURVEYOR. No, wait. I mean, I AM A QUANTITY SURVEYOR. Not a fashion designer, not a graphic-art-expertise, or interior design, or maybe even an artist who will be living with arts.

Again, let me repeat. I AM A QUANTITY SURVEYOR. Okay everyone, let’s say this together! NAURA, YOU ARE A QUANTITY SURVEYOR! Okay? Get that? Okay fine. Let’s move on to the pictures as it describes a thousand words.

Whatever it is, I had fun at the construction site. Seriously, I was doing my job ; asking the consultants some questions, observe the construction site, feel the sand with my own feet, and I also took some photographs!

And you know what? EVERYONE HAS A PLACE IN THIS WORLD. Trust me, I said EVERYONE. Even the burglars and rapist get to be in the jail and locked up behind the bars. Isn’t that a place for them? How about those LOSERS? Well, stop saying them LOSERS cause we are not that great. Guess what, without Losers, they will be NO winners, right?

So here is my point, it’s okay Naura. Fashion may be your super power, and major interest. Just remember now you are on the construction technology track and don’t give up just yet. Life is amazing, you’ll never know what happens next.
Keep on moving Naura, Life is too short to worry about shit. So what the fuck? Just move along. Keep on walking until your heart stops beating. Life is unfair, so just roll the dice and do it your way.

*doodling, sah takde kerja. hehehe. :'D

IS IT SO HARD TO PRONOUNCE NAURA NASUHA?

2010-08-24T06:44:00.000-07:00

1. People here actually called me LAURA from the first time I arrived here. What the F*CK? They actually picked that name based on that famous TV3 Sinetron UPIK, ABU, DAN LAURA. Holy cow! Please people! Please! It’s NAURA – for heaven’s sake!!
*On the 4th of July, it was my birthday. One of my mates actually made me a card and without any doubt, she wrote ; TO LAURA... holy crap. =.=’

2. Based on that drama, the LAURA person and I shared the same interest which I never thought it would be an endless issue; ADDICTED TO PINK. So the actress is CINTA LAURA. crap! Yes. They actually called me CINTA LAURA. no, no, noooo!!

3. Somehow, the revolution doesn’t ends with just a simple 'CINTA LAURA'. It continues when my classmate, who accidentally did some typo error when she wrote on my Facebook wall. Instead of NAURA, she typed MAURA. Yes, it sounds horrible and hideous. So now EVERYONE now calls me MAURA. Bonus points? They actually wrote my name MAURA MASUHA. It’s awful, really. It is. It's extremely unacceptable okay?!

*My class entered the QS TEN PIN BOWLING TOURNAMENT. So when it’s my turn to roll the ball, everyone cheered “GO MAURA, GO MAURAA!!” Again, yes the horrible name embarrassed me and suicide – here I COME!!

4. Last but not least, some of the people here actually call me AURORA. What the hell... Okay fine. I may be the Disney’s Sleeping Beauty Aurora but I am not the song from Estranged band entitle AURORA. Whatever it is, just stop calling me AURORA. It’s not my name! Seriously, it's not.

Okay people, let me keep this straight. Please bear in mind that my name is NAURA NASUHA.

CHARLIE

2010-08-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

Something that I will never talk about. Something that I disgust from its head to toe. Yes, CHARLIE is an insect which actually bit me without any guilt! And EUW, the stung, it hurts like hell when I took my bath. Bonus mark? I look like a monkey every time I scratch it. More points? The wound won’t seem to heal, and I HATE THIS.

DEAR CHARLIE,
I HATE YOU. GET OUT OFF MY LIFE.
I CAN’T DENY THAT EVERYONE HERE IN UITM PERAK KNOWS YOU AND I DON’T BLAME YOU FOR BEING DAMN FAMOUS.
IT’S WHAT YOU DO. YOU STUNG PEOPLE, AND YOU LEFT THEM SUFFERING.
THE PROBLEM IS - YOU BIT ME.
BECAUSE OF YOU, MY SKIN IS NOW CORRUPTED AND EUWWWW.
THANK GOD, NOW IT’S GETTING BETTER.
YOU OWE ME BIG TIME, SUCKER!
aku siap dapat MC lagi sebab kene gigit dengan kau. apa kes? ingat aku suka?

AGAIN, I HATE YOU. I REALLY DO. WITHOUT A DOUBT, I HATE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
SINCERELY, FROM
NAURA NASUHA – the victim of CHARLIE @ ROVE BEETLE.

SURPRISE! SURPRISE!

2010-08-24T05:49:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY MUMMY & DADDY, AND THE WHOLE FAMILY.

After suffering from the orientation week, I wanted to go home and meet my family. I miss them terribly and I want to tell them everything what I’ve been through before my classes start. Plus, the weekend falls on my 18th birthday, 4th of July. However, my family don’t allow their youngest princess to return home due to some other circumstances and consequences. So there I was, crying in the middle of the night on my bed when everyone was asleep. I sobbed and called my brother. I told him how much I wanted to meet the rest of the family, be with them, live with them, and directly feel the love from them.

Somehow, thanks to my ‘helpful’ brother, he was like “dah malam lahh.. pergi lah tidur. Bye” Just like that. He hung up, and I continued crying. The bloody MAXIS & CELCOM lines are also in BUSY NETWORK. I was like – damn it. THANK YOU GOD. FOR EVERYTHING. I’M 18 NOW. BE COOL.

I slept, and I woke up. All of my roommates sang me the birthday song. I smiled. Well, I was overwhelmed actually. I wanted to cry, but there were no tears rolled on my cheek. Yeah, it’s because I just woke up and I wore my sleepy face on. That’s why.
I stared at my cell phone - “31 messages received”. I smiled. I decided to take my bath before I read those text messages. It was 10am. So I drag myself lazily to the bathroom. I turn on my cell phone mp3, and started to sing in the shower and flow with the beat of the music just to cheer myself up.
Suddenly...
Someone knocked on my shower door.
“siot, nak mandi pun tak senang...” popped in my head.
“Mak cik, oooo mak cik...”
And I was like - “eh? Macam kenal je suara tu!”
(The only person in this world who called me mak cik is my sister)
I peeked the door and AAAAAAAHHH. It is! It’s my sister!! Right in front of me! I grabbed her! Oh GOD, it’s real. I jumped with joy.
My family actually came to Perak all the way from Shah Alam just to surprise me.
Note this; it’s the BEST birthday present ever! A surprise visit from my beloved family. :’)

NAURA is back on air. :-)

2010-08-24T05:25:00.000-07:00

Okay people. Here I am spitting everything out since I’ve been gone for the past months.
I am now studying in UiTM Perak, Seri Iskandar in diploma in Quantity Surveying. How’s that? Mummy’s little princess now is living in a campus life. Daddy’s little princess is now a college student.
It’s okay Naura, let’s start off with something BIG and NEW.

At first it’s a bit torturing with the MDS week, or other words, the fucking orientation week! The facilitators actually treated us like we are living in a military camp! I cursed and swear all the time. The hot weather, the facilitators’ shouts and yells, the packed schedule, I mean what is that?! I just got here directly from Shah Alam, and here I am, stuck in this HELL. No, DUNGEON.
After 7 days of torturing, everything was back to normal and the adventure begins.

To summarize things up, firstly, I was selected as the Assistant Classrep for QS1D. Okay, “thanks Encik Syhidi” *sighed*

Then I was elected to become the WAKIL PART 1 OF PERUBAHAN.
What is PERUBAHAN? It is actually stands for PERSATUAN UKUR BAHAN UiTM PERAK, ( UiTM PERAK QUANTITY SURVEYOR’S SOCIETY) or something like that I assume.
Next, I thought I’m gonna have a hard time to socialize and make new friends. Guess what? I was soooooo wrong! As some of you know, I’m a little bit talkative, hyperactive, and bubblish giggly. So I made a lot of friends. And I really mean it, A LOT.

Sheila, from TTDI Jaya who is my roommate is also my classmate! Yeah! She is like a mother who takes good care of EVERYTHING, including me! I love her to death, :-) and then I have Fiza, insanely funny and kind-hearted. Next is Wanie, from Terengganu, she keeps everything straight. And I’m honestly impressed by that.
Those are my roommates. Without noticing, all of us actually ‘accidentally’ form a group of TEN peeps! Let me lay it out for you.

NAURA + SHEILA + FIZA + WANIE = ROOMATES
MY ROOMATES + AMOI + ZANA + TIQA + DAYAH + ATEN + PIKA = THE TEN! :-)

See? All of us posses different type of personality and style, but somehow we still stick together and share all the laughter . You see, I can conclude something that I never thought that I could see with my own naked eyes and feel with my heart;
BE YOURSELF, BECAUSE FRIENDSHIP NEVER CARES ABOUT WHERE YOURE FROM, AND WHO YOU ARE. SERIOUSLY, I REALLY MEAN IT

All of us are living on the same floor of ANGGERIK DUA block, KOLEJ CEMPAKA SARI. And yes, just like you guessed, my room is the port where we all eat, meet and sleep. And laugh!!
After a while, my classmate ALIA is now officially with us THE TEN :-) She’s form Bandar Baru Bangi and staying at next to our block, BAKAWALI SATU. Oh hell, we love her! She’s very cool and calm yet very cheeky and funny! She always sleeps with us in my room and joins us overnight.

LIFE IS AMAZING, BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. RIGHT?

I'm a die-hard-fan of....?

2009-08-26T12:04:00.000-07:00

And now, it is time for me to reveal, how fanatic I am towards MILEY CYRUS. ;)
She is one damn shining star, don't you think so? ;)

*yup, this is just some of it. you'll see another part next time.

total Mily Cyrus's posters in my room ; 17
(including 4 Hannah Montana's + 1 wall of fame)

*I know, some of you might think that posters doesn't mean anything, but it is to me.
She's damn talented, and she can sing, dance, act, playing the guitar, write songs, and oh yeah. she is one funny girl. Catch her on Disney's Hannah Montana. She's just being her and no one can stop her. :) OMG. I love her! I love her! I love her! :)

and here's my MILEY CYRUS's WALL OF FAME. I made it myself. :)
*hah! memang saya berbangga! :D

MTV Worldstage, live in MALAYSIA

2009-08-25T09:43:00.000-07:00

Yes, everybody knew that the MTV World Stage was a blast. No, wait. It was wicked awesome, baby! HUUUUAAAAA!!!!!! Now we’re talking! Haha! It was held on the 15th of August at 6pm. I’m not sure what was the objective of the concert was but, it really drives everyone in this planet crazy! Including me! Aha! So yea, since this awesome and incredible concert was held, I am now directly falling in love with this lucky band; RAYGUN. Oh, I bet some of you have already rock out with their latest single; JUST BECAUSE. Ah! Damn it, they are so freaking cool I tell you! AAAAAAHHH! And, and, and, ALL AMERICAN REJECTS was there too! IN MALAYSIA! Holy cow! Tyson, oh Tyson! I love you! Performing the famous Dirty Little Secrets as the opening, and there goes the old time favourite Swing Swing, and pop goes the latest Gives You Hell and I Wanna. AAAAHHH! Is it me, or this whole thing just drives me total insane?! AAAAAHH!!

*Okay Naura, you can stop the excitement. -.-‘ puft-!

Hari ini saya pergi sekolah, :)

2009-08-23T22:33:00.001-07:00

Mood; exhausted (kepenatan)
Language; bahasa melayu

Sepatutnya kita sebagai pelajar, bergembira kerana waktu yang amat dinantikan oleh pelajar sudah tiba! CUTI SEKOLAH. Akan tetapi, Puan Afidah pergi buat kelas tambahan lah pulak.. So, mummy & ayah pun suruh pergi. Kak ila pun sama, sebok jugak suruh aku pergi. Kalau ikutkan nafsu, nak aje aku sambung tidur. Tapi takpelah, dapat ilmu juga. Lepas tu, boleh jumpe Intan! YEAY! ;D

Tup Tup, 8am, tiba di sekolah. Ya Tuhan ku, kelas aku 10 orang je datang. Hah. Dah agak dah. Tapi tak pelah. Ramai lagi budak dari kelas lain yang datang. Duduk sebelah intan & adam. :) Bak kata Adam, hari ni dia lapar gila, tulis pun menggigil. Untuk menghilangkan perasaan lapar itu, kita main surat-surat. Sekejap je, tak lama. Lepas tu fokus untuk sejarah pulak. Nampaknya, apa cikgu cakap dekat depan, memang betul-betul bagus. Dia macam terangkan balik pasal sejarah tingkatan 4. Pengaruh Hindu-Buddha, kerajaan Agraria & Maritim, kerajaan Srivijaya, Wawasan 2020 (tingakatan 5), dan sebagainya. Syukurlah aku bawak buku rujukan yang padat tu. Lengkap. Semua ada.

Teng Teng, 12p.30pm, dah balik. Ramai pulak yang bawak kereta pergi sekolah hari ni. Zainal, abang Nas, Seth, Nik Anis, Aini, dan siapa entah lagi. Haih, bila lah aku punya turn nak bawak kereta Gen-2 mak aku pergi sekolah. Haha. Teringin jugak nak bawak. Intan pun cemburu tengok diorang. Tiba-tiba Saffa yang berbasikal lalu depan kitorang. Haha. Comel lah pulak. :)

less talking, more thinking :)

2009-08-23T12:26:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, but I think enough is enough. Brain damage! Argh! I kept thinking about my world crisis. With that girl and that girl, and that fight and those lies, plus all those drama thingy. Sometimes it creeps me out. *shivers* Somehow I think I am now living in the valley of dramas. Ah, get me out of here!! BTW, Selamat berpuasa everyone! :)

I really want to stay friends with you sayang, but please be original.

2009-08-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

After almost a month locking up myself with books, and now finally, I can put my hands on this bloody lappy! and online! yeay! and I'm fine thank you. :) *thanks for asking.
Lately, here I am, addicted with ED WESTWICK. I just can't get my naked bare eyes off him! He is so damn hot. Hoh! I can't breath!

Next, I just discovered something extra unusual yesterday. Yes, some of you already knew that I've been suffering in silence almost a year. Well, you know, - THAT girl - who kept bugging my life and who also now - lack of identity and kept copying others; ME! I don't mean to brag or anything, but please sayang. GET A LIFE! Why me? Why you choose me? What am I? Your idol? Puft! Frankly, go away from me and start a new life! be original! *if you get what I mean. And stop making up stories! cause I DON'T BUY CRAP! I may not be a genius, but I'm NOT an idiot. So sayang, you can't easily fool me. The juicy part was, I discovered that some of my friends DOESN'T like her too. And I was like WHAT THE-? KORANG BIAR BETUL WEH?! Holy cow! I thought I was the only human being on this planet - get STUCK with her. Oh, I'm really fuckin' glad cause they told me. :)

Seriously, I'm not a backstabber, hypocrite, or anything. I just can't stand it! and I hope that she could change someday. REALLY.

*Dah lah, tanak lah cakap pasal dia lagi. Rasa macam serba salah pulak.

starting a new band maybe?

2009-07-24T02:33:00.001-07:00

What would you say IF the piano wants to get along with the drum in a major gig? Is that possible? I think, there’s something wrong with that combination. Wrong. It’s just wrong! But the guitar agreed to have a gig together with the band. On the same hand, the bass wanted this weird combination to get real. Well, music is universal. Right? Everyone can enjoy it no matter what the instruments are as long as it’s music! And trust me hun, I’m sure the piano will transform into a keyboard when they form the brand new band.

p/s; okay. good. wait. and see...

bahasa melayu

2009-07-24T02:33:00.000-07:00

jadi, disebabkan masa peperiksaan pertengahan tahun yang lepas tu saya tidak berjaya menguasai matapelajaran bahasa melayu, saya bercadang untuk menggunakan bahasa tersebut dalam blog saya ini. dan tampaknya, mummy pon setuju! :)

p/s; i will only use bahasa melayu in this blog when i feel i wanted to. so yea. :)

membaling tepung!

2009-07-24T02:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTAN LIYANA! :)

dan trimas kepada semua yang menjayakan sesi membaling tepung tadi. dan juga kepada f-yamin sebab tolong supply sekali. :) oh makcik intan, masa 3hb kau baling dekat aku dgn sepenuh perasaan kau kann.. now, it's payback time! muahaha! *evil laugh!* btw, muka kau dah lah cerah, pastu kene tepung lagi, da macam hantu kau taw. tapi hantu comel laaa. putih gila doh. kalah snow white! BAHAHA! ;D

sayang,kita dah 5 tahun jadi bestfriend. takde sapa bole ganti kau dlm hidup aku. susa senang kau slalu bwat aku snyum dgn muka comel kau dan ke-caring-an kau. haha! aku sayang kau sgt2. kau sangat2 best. stay like this 4 ever! and don't change! not even a bit. and aku sgt2 sorry klaw aku dah susakan kau selama nih..(or tengking kau) hehe. itu rahsia kita berdua yea sayang! :) ily ily ily! and happy birthday! :)

only me, only you, and the band

2009-07-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
A wonder wall of stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
Is the one right where you are
- David Archuleta, Touch my Hand

5th July @ Sunway

2009-07-07T09:48:00.001-07:00

After almost 6 months I locked myself up with pressure and books, finally I get to spend quality time with my classmates & friends out of the boring class without all those desks and tables and that smokey blackboard. huh! Yeay. Everybody gathered up to celebrate my 17th birthday at Sunway Piramid. I would like to say how lucky I am right now to have a such a wonderful, amazing yet crazy friends to be with. Although ramai yang tak dapat pergi, it's okay. I don't mind. Yela, SPM. I get it. I would like to thank all of you who always lighted up my life and always give me a HAHA laugh everyday I come to school. LOL

DIDIY, YEE CHING, IQBAL, AZRUL, AZRI, DINUL, AFIQ, WAN, ABBAS, PA'AN, JIMIY, ZAINAL, AIZAT, SARAH & her cousin FARAH.

sayang korang semua lahh. myra, walaupun u takde, i tetap sayang u jugak!. :)

okay mates! say cheese! :D

Well,on this particular day, AZRUL and DIDIY, thought me how to eat WRAPS. huh? ape tu? Yeah, it's more like a roti canai yang berlipat-lipat and you'll find some cheese and chicken and beef and blablabla inside the roti canai fold. Interesting. I wonder who invented that thing. It's called PARATHA - oh,something like that. Yeah. It's quite tasty, but way too many onions. -.-' bodo punya chef, kau gila bawang ke hah?

last but not least, here are some snapshots of the birthday girl and her pals. :)

dibaling tepung -.-'

2009-07-03T06:52:00.000-07:00

Yes. The title clearly states. SAYA DIBALING TEPUNG. Esok birthday, tapi hari ni kene. -.-' . Siapalah punya kerja supply tepung nih, memang nak kene! It was 12.30pm, and I was getting ready to fly home. Then Umyra called me, saying "beg Haziq rosak!". Dengan semangat dan penuh tekad aku membetulkan beg Haziq yang kononnya rosak, tiba-tiba terdengar suara yang macam beramai-ramai dan comel-comel saying "WE LOVE YOU, NAURA" and belum sempat ku toleh ke belakang, - KELEPUPP! hoh!!

Habis semua putih! Dah macam hantu dah! Bak kata Abang Nas, "kau balek nih, terus masuk oven!" peh! dia ingat aku nih adunan kek ke hape? LOL. Lepas kene 'bomb putih', ingatkan dah takde. Suddenly - PLISHHH! there goes the water bomb. peh! memang melekit lah. adoyyy. Didn't see that one coming.

UMYRAH, DIDIY, YEE CHING, INTAN, JIMIE, AIZAT, ABANG NAS, ANAS, WAN, IQBAL, and SHEILA
korang nihhhh.. haihhh... *gelengkepala!* haha!

**my fellow sayangs, if it wasn't my birthday coming, trust me, I'll be cursing! muahaha. *evillaugh*

A day that I will not and must not forget for the next ten years!

it's a major crisis everyone.

2009-06-29T12:35:00.000-07:00

Okay, everyone. I am now suffering, and dealing with this one weird disease called - "naurakenapakautakbolehtidur". -.-'
I know my fellow friends. This is soooo~ not cool. Really, I mean it. Some of you, oh no. wait. Most of you, yeah. Most of you might think this is just something normal and probably think "hek ele, naura gelabah." Oh. IDFC. Esok sekolah, so - this is a major crisis! *sighed* It's almost 4 o'clock in the morning and my eyes are still open wide. Whoa! Holy cow! And yes, here also comes the moment of truth.
open day + report card = aaarghhh!!!

Pink For Sure.

2009-06-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

Okay. I just can't sleep. It's already 2.18am and I have no idea how I ended up surfing the net. huaaargh. oh, biarlah. By the way, I just found this amazing website.
www.pinkforsure.com
yes, it's all about pink, hot pink, soft pink, and all kinds of pink! Mamma mia! Layouts, quotes, pictures. I think it's awesome! for someone like me lahh. haha. check it out!

dammit. dammit.

2009-06-27T23:05:00.000-07:00

I tried to remember when was the last time I had fun. Has anyone told you the fact that life is not fair? I absolutely agree. I’m going to be seventeen this Saturday, and I have to face the biggest examination of my entire life this year - SPM. And I am positively sure this doesn’t mean that I can’t enjoy the other side of the world like everybody. Somehow, I think this is too much. Enough is enough! I’ve been living in this dungeon full filled with books for a half of the year and I must keep on slogging, keep on going until it is time for me to stop. SPM is the only ticket for me to fly higher than anyone else to achieve my spectacular dreams! Books, books, and books. Thank God, I don’t have to deal with the coffins and moats. Or worse, the corps. Only books.
Today, I start with crunchy cereals and followed by numbers and calculations - Additional Mathematics. Permutations and combinations! One of the worse and easy-to-fail subject in the universe besides Physics. I took my pencil, and start counting. At the same time, I’m still thinking how interesting my life will be today.
Right now, I'm waiting a very special call from my girlfriend. Yes, she's having a very jolly good time in Medan, Indonesia. Harap² dia tak bawak balik those virus. -.-'

TAG

2009-06-19T10:11:00.002-07:00

Tag 10 people after you're done!

I have. . . (a point for each one)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
#MY TOTAL: 2

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
#MY TOTAL: 6

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
#MY TOTAL: 2

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
#MY TOTAL: 5

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
#MY TOTAL: 3

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
#MY TOTAL: 5

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
#MY TOTAL: 4

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
#MY TOTAL: 2

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
#MY TOTAL: 5

Grand Total: 34. and...?

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]'
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

WTF?? I'M A BAD KID? *jangan prcaya bnda karut nih!*

10 people that needs my baaaaad influence are
1.sarah
2.didi
3.haziq
4.adam
5.shy
6.fareena
7.emo
8.abang nas! :D haha.
9.jimiy! kahkahkah.
10.adila rawker. :)

BLAME him! NOT me!!

2009-06-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

Hey you! Yeah, you. READ this!
“Aku tolong dia buat google account. Tu je. Sebab dia tak reti. Mula-mula aku tanya baik-baik je. Dengan penuh caring aku tanya enn. Tiba-tiba kau melenting. Memang aku geram dengan kau. Geram ada, sedih pun ada. Aku tak bersalah, tapi kau melepaskan emosi kemarahan kau dekat aku. You wanna get even with me? HAHA. ‘terbaik’!! Almost everyone yang aku cerita pasal ni, diorang cakap, asal aku macam mangsa keadaan? Peh! Tau takpe. Kau bengang dekat dia, tapi kau marah-marah dekat aku. Huh! Padahal aku back-up kau enn masa aku chat dgn dia dkt ym mlm tu. Aku tak faham lah dengan kau. And guess what? Aku tak sangka yang aku mampu bertahan dgn kau selama ni. Tadi Intan cakap, kau cakap kau tak marah kat aku, cuma tak nak pandang muka aku je. PERGH! Tak macam hina pulak bila aku dgr kata-kata tu kan! Padahal, that time - kau pandang muka Azrul, dgn Emo - and kau marah-marah dekat aku! Then kau bole buat muka tempoyak dgn aku. Wey, aku mengaku memang aku bagi password and email aku dkt dia. So? Dia yang cakap kau G*Y. Bukan aku! Faham? BUKAN aku! Dan aku tidak akan minta maaf atas apa yang si Rafael tu buat dekat kau. Sebab BUKAN aku yang cakap kau G*Y. It’s between you and him! NOT ME! Yes, and I did say - “iskh, jangan lah kutuk dia dekat sini.” memang lah! Kalau kau nak kutuk kwn aku pun, pergi lah jauh-jauh tempat yang aku tak dengar! Siapa sanggup dengar org kutuk member kita sendiri. And yes - dia memang ada kutuk kau. Tapi aku back-up kau. Heh! Apa-apa lah! Aku tak minta apa-apa ganjaran pun dari kau sebab aku back-up kau. But - apa yang kau buat dekat aku tu macam melampau ahh. Peh! Dah lah. Aku dah malas gila nak layan kau. Dah lah kau duduk depan aku dekat kelas. Huh! Lantak lah. Kau rasa kau betul sangat kan? Okay, fine. Settle. You, win! Nak sangat menang dgn perempuan! Here you go! Have it! And enjoy it! Satisfied??”

FYI, aku dah maafkan kau walaupun kau tak minta maaf dekat aku.

p/s; thanks for ALL the memories!